Not really sure if this is outside of the scope of this thread, but I really just needed somewhere to spill my guts so to speak.
I feel really shitty. So many bad things keep happening, I generally manage to deal with it but it's all just catching up to me today. My brother, who I consider to be my second closest sibling out four others was recently diagnosed with cancer. He moved to the Dallas area a few years ago, which isn't incredibly far from me, but far enough to make travel a yearly (if I can afford it) occasion. He's gone through a few surgeries so far, he's done with that for now. They had to remove a muscle in his leg. It could of been worse, but it's really heartbreaking to think he may not be able to walk normally ever again despite otherwise being perfectly healthy. There's so many more things that make the situation that much shittier, but I've got too many things causing me distress to gloss over every single one.
I'm going to see him for the first time since these events in about a month, with a plane ticket I really shouldn't be spending money on. He has to work two of the five days that I'll be here, and he's also undergoing radiation treatment on top of that. My sister, my first closest sibling, just had a big falling out with her boyfriend. The first boyfriend she's had that made her seriously consider marriage, which is a really big deal if you were to understand our how incredibly F-ed up our lives have been in terms of parental figures and their relationships. He's a pretty decent guy, and he's been really helpful in generally helping out around the house. Doing odd jobs that no one else would even think of doing, and really improving our living situation in general. I'm not sure if they are going to break up or not, but it seems to be a possibility.
My family intended to move to the general Texas area (some are going to Dallas, others probably Austin) within the next few years. This plan is now being screwed for myself, because my sister decided she wants to move into our grandparents house in Illinois, and pursue her college classes there. I'm going with her, because we need to find a roomate who we are strangers to, and she will generally just need support. I'm not really angry with her, it's just a really stressful situation. We have virtually no furniture to take with us, and the house is completely empty because my grandfather died not even a year ago, and we had to put my grandmother in a nursing home.
The house is sitting on a rather expensive piece of property, in a multi-million dollar area. The house is completely paid for, but we still have to pay taxes which still turns out to be more than any of us could hope to afford in our current situation. My father is paying the taxes, and paying for my grandmother's nursing home which is also rather expensive. The house is also in fairly bad shape. It needs paint, carpet, furniture, appliances, probably plumbing and the list just goes on. It's actually empty at the moment, which is a pretty bad thing because the rich asshole neighbors don't take kindly to abandoned property. We could easily lose the property to any number of issues. My grandfather designed and built this house. It's the only thing left to my sister and I in my grandfather's will, which is sort of nice but also the single worst thing that could of happened. Everyone else in the family got stocks, antique furniture etc. I'm a bit bitter about that. The property taxes are reduced a hefty bit because of an arrangement with the government, however this will no longer be the case when my grandmother passes away.
That's the bulk of it, but there's so much more I'm leaving out. One other major issue is that we've got about five cars split between a few people right now. One of them has been waiting to be repaired for a few months now. Two more just broke down at nearly the same point. We've got two cars split between five drivers, wouldn't of been a big issue until this whole moving to Illinois thing popped up. We now literally need all five cars. I'm not even one of the drivers, I don't actually drive at all. Sorry if this is poorly formatted or has grammatical errors, I honestly don't want to proofread any of it. I would be a bit surprised if anyone actually read much of it.
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