I did some reflection the other day, and I have to say that while High school were the worst years of my life, I think I can forgive nearly everyone involved. All my classmates, who teased me and secluded me, whom I beat my head against a wall and bent over backwards trying to please to become a part of the normal group, were, in retrospect, not at all as worthy of blame as my younger self had attributed to them. They were just kids my age, who had the benefit of not having an extremely violent upbringing, and enjoyed life acting as such.
I can forgive the scores of incompetent counselors, all assigned to 'help' me, but would only succeed in making me feel more alienated and alone than I originally came in. I was a stone to these people, I would refrain from telling them even the most remote detail of my life, for fear they were in the school's pocket and would enact retribution on me. I can't blame them for attempting their job, even if it's a miserable attempt.
I can forgive my teachers, who would perform their duties at above perfunctory levels, and I learned from them things I would forget only a few years later. They were always genial and friendly, even if it was of no use to me and my more troubling problems.
The only person I can't forgive is my HS Principal, who, even in retrospect, was an irredeemable asshole. Whenever I had a problem, Mr. Principal was guaranteed to stick his nose in and exacerbate my pithy of emotions. I had quite a lot of mental and emotional problems, and the truly incorrigible prick, not taking even the slightest clue, would only threaten and punish me whenever a problem would arise from my instability. I can’t recall the number of times I had been called into his office, only to be browbeaten and lectured, to have my psyche falsely analyzed and pathologically construed. The very person who’s job it was the oversee the students, purposefully blunted my every attempt to seek help, and ostracize me whenever I would snap. Then pat himself on the back for his good job.
I think I can safely say that my life back then could have been improved, had he not been the despicable human being that he was, and offer me help instead of condemnation.
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