I worked on a little VR Film about the double standards and difficulties surrounding adopting as a queer parent in the UK. It ended up doing well enough that it got nominated for some awards, and we all were invited to [Prestigious International Film Festival I'm Not Technically Allowed To Name Yet].
I'm probably SUPPOSED to be more excited about this, or more ready to like... jump at the chance to network professionally. I know it's a fairly rare opportunity, and is a big way people secure better work, and all that. But the thought of going to the festival just stresses me the heck out? And I guess that's got me feeling down too.
Even if I ignore the ongoing plague and heat wave... I'd definitely feel the travel costs. Plane tickets to [Large Italian City], and hotels, and eating at restaurants for several days would easily burn through most of my savings right now, and I'm struggling enough with food and rent. And though I'd love to see other people's work, I don't think I'd enjoy it as an Industry Hobnobbing Event, or have the social energy to make good use of it either?
If it's all the same to everyone, I would like to just stay in my gay little workshop being paid to make my gay little projects, let people engage with my work instead of me, and just like.... not be perceived. That would be ideal, thanks.