Got into an argument with my ex again. She's completely lost it. She now wants to no longer talk At all but still play D&D together where she says we can talk all we want (although I know she's not even gonna give me the time of day if that happens). She's convinced also that, upon showing her what she makes me feel when she talks down to me or berates me, that she's completely blameless, even though she's aware she insulted me and admitted it because of "science". She's gone too far this time
Im done being treated inhumanely, I'm done being imasculated, I'm done having her strike at my insecurities
But stupid me, I'm gonna give her a final chance. I disagreed to her terms and told her all or nothing. We stay friends or we end the friendship. I told her out of respect, I'll cancel all future D&D games and gatherings with mutual friends and I'll exclude myself if they all want to hang out together. I more or less offered to remove myself from our circle of friends and I agreed (and I'm serious about) to not do hangouts without her, cause I don't want to tear her friends from her.
I told her this and she's already saying how it's disrespectful to her. IT WAS DISRESPECTFUL TO ME WHEN YOU SNAPPED AT ME ASKING HOW YOURE DOING.
I'm in a mix of pure, unending anger and trying to not bawl my eyes out. Nose is watering and throat feels like I just cried, but I'm completely upset that she's once again demanding I bend over backwards for her while she does nothing
It's a miracle that I still have patience for her after this to give her a week to calm her head (and for me to calm mine of course) and then we finish the discussion: we stay friends or we don't. No tiptoeing, no pretending and no looking back
I often burn the bridges when I cut ties with people. I'm a friend loyal to the grave, but if you break that friendship, I erase myself from your life from that point on. I've done it before, and despite being someone I loved very much and I loathe to do so, I will do the same to her if that's what happens