So, being the living under a rock dude I am, I just only watched Interstellar. I really need to catch up on all the movies I missed the past few years (Interstellar being one of worst offenders, it came out like a year before my actual... shit happens cutoff, when I stopped giving a damn), there has been quite a few.
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I'd really want to watch Cinema Sins or read up some more serious notes on why it's all bullshit (Quantum love, if that shit was true then I might as well start believing in miracles because I am afraid love fucked me sideways for now, with no prospects of it getting any better), but... I kinda don't. Sometimes, with science-fiction, you just got to lay back and not give a damn. It toyed with real science, and the plot "twists" were good enough for me to suspect them, but not be sure until they actually happened. And I liked the music.
But, you know, the thing that got me was the quote. You know, the "Rage, rage against the dying of the light." one. It's one of those many quotes that I've been catching through the years, like the Captain America "No, you move." one. The ones that tell you to basically say "Fuck you." to the inventable, despite everyone is telling you that i makes no sense. I have been defiant on many matters through my whole life, and many times were right (not that it matters much in the end), to the point I took my stuborness as a defining characteristic of mine. But I am afraid that time will come, or might have already came, when I shouldn't have stood against everything else. I am afraid that there will be an really important decision and I will be wrong but I will still choose to go against everything else. And it made me think. I am in a spot in which I will either stand my ground or let go and succumb to the pressure. Letting go seems much more logical, and that's what people seem to tell me to do, but still, I feel like I shouldn't. That if I will surrender I will betray what I stood for, agree to that there is nothing worth fighting for and I will lose myself. If I'm wrong and choose to not give up, I will proably end up as a cynic failure of a man hating himself for being such stubborn fool. If I choose to give up, I will go against my beliefs, and I am afraid I will despite myself for betraying myself.