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[Tack]

If you weren't informed, there was no way you could've known, and nothing you could've done.
Don't go thinking that you have in some way failed the departed, because that can really tear you apart.

[LordBaal]

That reminded me the time I got called about my brother's death. I immediately called other of my brothers and he told me they were leaving the cemetery. I never got to say goodbye. My life has been pretty fucked up in retrospective.

[Fniff]

Playing LISA.
Got to the third crossroads.
Fuck Buzzo.
Just... fuck him.

Enjoying the game so far.

[TheBiggerFish]

*hugs greatorder*

That sucks.

[Tack]

So continuing my birthday streak (From WTF thread), that damage I did to my car seems to be closer to $1600 worth of damage.
Not sure if I'll just get a new one at this rate.

[hops]

Me: Man I'm bored
Brain: You should kill yourself
Me: dUDE

[sjm9876]

At university. That's not... inherently the issue.

The issue stems from the fact I don't seem to share interests with many people I've met. Only one thus far, actually.

Whether this is JUST different interests or a side effect of me fucking up my A levels before doing an access to HE course a few years later, and as a result, being older than most other people here is a mystery to me. I have several friendly acquaintances, but don't seem to be able to get beyond that with most people.

EDIT: Also waves of homesickness. That's not helping AT ALL.

May need to give home a visit in the next few weeks. Been here less than a week and already feeling crap :/

Give it time and it may fall together. It's still around fresher's time, and to be honest, most people don't make proper friends til a while after. Just take some of those random invites to stuff you get around freshers (I mean, we had them in physics and we aren't exactly renowned for our socialisation, but could be different elsewhere ), and keep talking to people. Uni has so many types of people in that it can take a while to find those you get on with, but if you can it's great

But yeah, don't be afraid to pop home if you're homesick. Better to lose a couple days than to feel crap.

[TD1]

Join loooooooooooooots of clubs.

[Emma]

I would ask if cutting yourself is helping you, but it's something that I've never done personally, no matter how bad things got - or the urge, anyway - so I doubt that would be a good question.

I will point out that it hasn't made things get better though, at least mid- to long-term, so you should seek help elsewhere.

What is it exactly making you not want help?

Because trying to get help is hard and cutting myself is easy and I'm lazy and weak willed.

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Before I was saying that cutting myself was a problem because I've been told that it's bad. Now my cuts burn when I walk, yeah this might be getting a bit out of hand. It's so easy though. And it let's me show how fucked up I am on the inside on the outside. Shit, this is why I hate myself.

[TheBiggerFish]

Gamedragon...

*hugs*

Go see a doctor.  Please.  If only because that just can't be good for your health.

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I think someone I consider to be a friend might have decided they don't like me anymore.  This sucks.

[Yoink]

I think someone I consider to be a friend might have decided they don't like me anymore.  This sucks.

That kinda happened to me once. It was weird. Not fun.
All of a sudden they weren't keen to hang out anymore, where before we'd been thick as thieves. I think. I don't have many friendships to compare it to.
There was even an awkward moment where I bumped into the guy on the street near where I lived and we made vague plans to "definitely hang out" at some point in the future. Took quite a while before it occurred to me what might have been the problem- the last time we'd hung out he gave me a lift back to my house, and rap came on the car radio.

Of course, rap is to me as sunlight is to a vampire.
I asked something like, "are you a fan of rap?," just tentatively probing the waters there, and the reply was along the lines of "nah not really," so then I followed up with "I can't fucking stand it," to which he made some vaguely agreeable noises followed by awkward silence as the channel remained unchanged.
At the time I assumed he was just the kind of person who leaves a certain radio station on in the car, which is weird but not unforgivable, and didn't think much of it. Quite a while later, though, after we'd stopped hanging out and I'd given up trying to invite the guy to gigs, he started posting a series of drawings/tattoo designs of famous rappers on Facebook.
Seems he was a fan of that stuffgarbage all along.

So I finally figured out that that one interaction was probably the direct cause of the end of the friendship, whilst I had no idea at the time.
A nice, simple and polite "fuck you" would have been preferable to an unexplained cold shoulder. Not like I would have particularly valued the friendship if I'd known he was into rap, but y'know. Was rather confusing at the time.

[miauw62]

maybe you could make more friends if you didn't irrationally hate an entire, loosely defined genre and act like this somehow makes you better.

[TD1]

That assumes that making more friends is more important to him than a musical hierarchy.

At the bottom of which, very firmly, is conventional rap.

[hector13]

Conventional rap isn't that bad.

Gangsta rap is shite.

[Yoink]

maybe you could make more friends if you didn't irrationally hate an entire, loosely defined genre and act like this somehow makes you better.

A) it is not "irrationally," I do plenty of irrational things every day but this is not one of them, B) it does, and C) if I valued the acquisition of friends purely for the sake of having friends regardless of their actual worth as people I would live my life very, very differently.