Sorry, people who I'm not replying to. I don't want to leave a general hug (and in Kal's case it was more of a meaningful-encouragement-hug than I-am-comforting-you-hug.)
Huh. This is one of the few times when Bay12 has actually given me really good problem-appropriate advice that I would not have thought of on my own.
(When I think about "taking alone time," what I usually mean by that isn't nearly so... constructive >_>)
I don't want to read textbooks because I work too much anyway, but I'll work on some creative projects I've been wanting to put some time on.
Well I don't mean mathematical textbooks. I like to pore through art history, the Kama Sutra, and other miscellaneous books on things I don't know.
Feeling like I don't belong anywhere and don't even deserve to belong anywhere again.
That little voice reminding me how I should've been banned from here years ago doesn't help either.
Caroline, you barely register on the weird-tween-o-meter, where 1 is a theoretical teenage Tiruin, and 10 is Imperial Guardsman. Even then, you're young and these things are to be expected. Personally, I make it my motto that if I don't cringe at my past self, then that means I haven't improved enough.
One thing that self-conscious people should understand, though, is that when it is said that giving judgments to strangers is unfair, this also applies to oneself. Your past self doesn't have the same experience and knowledge as you. Cut the kid some slack.
[hugrh I tried to give more advice here but they are messes so have hugs instead?]
@Truean:
I'm rooting for you, Truean. You'll get through this.
So, I dropped my sister off at her basketball game like I was asked. She didn't know how she was getting home, so I told her that if mom didn't pick her up she should call me. So she called, and I got her home about 20 minutes later than expected.
So obviously I deserve a lecture about how I'm wasting my life and don't care about anyone and I'm a terrible sibling for abandoning my sister like that and how I made her feel like no one cares about her and I'm terrible for not working hard enough... (Note, my sister was fine with the whole thing. She was a little disappointed with her loss, but she didn't lose by much. She's hoping to do better with a bit more practice.)
* Cinder hugs
FAKEEDIT: To be honest, I'm still not sure if I should even talk about this but this post is already a huge mess (probably not that much to you guys since I cut out a lot), but I'm just not Tiruin. I can't emotionally handle all these sads. I'm sorry, I know it's unfair to you people. In the future, I won't let these sads pile up and I'll be more active here.