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[Worldmaster27]

Sleep deprived. Stressed out from college. Stressed out at home. Stressed out and angry constantly. Life is a mess and going nowhere. Really wish I could kill myself right now.

It's groundhog day... again. Though, my groundhog day is proably 11 of November, but eh, it's really shitty anyway. It would be proably so much easier to just kill myself or something.

DDDDD:

Please don't do that or anything else permanently damaging! We care about you guys a whole bunch, and personally I would be devastated to learn that either of you had done that and that you wouldn't be around any more.

Life will get better and you will too, you'll be able to meet whatever circumstance throws at you. You guys can handle this and it will be okay! Nothing lasts forever! Please don't do anything rash, and remember that suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems.

*many hugs to both of you, and everyone else*

[TheBiggerFish]

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*also hugs Kot*

[Orange Wizard]

Today, I am tired. Yawn. RIP.

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What happened to DigitalDemon? When I left he was depressed...

I think he's still around somewhere.

[TheBiggerFish]

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*also hugs DigitalDemon, just in case.*

[WillowLuman]

Sleep deprived. Stressed out from college. Stressed out at home. Stressed out and angry constantly. Life is a mess and going nowhere. Really wish I could kill myself right now.

All too familiar feelings :c
Hang in there! Just tell yourself "You can do it! Don't stop!" and you can pull through. Say it out loud. I know it sounds silly but it helps if you keep at it.
Just, hang in there.

[Amperzand]

Seriously, suicide is not a good solution to problems. It prevents any future improvement, and usually causes severe trauma to anyone close to you.

[Kot]

and usually causes severe trauma to anyone close to you.

Like who? Everyone who I thought was close to me either doesn't actually care at all or actually hates me.
Also, it's not an solution. I just want the fucking life to stop hurting so much.

[TheBiggerFish]

@Kot:I care.  We care.

[Orange Wizard]

Baka. Death doesn't stop the hurting, it just makes others hurt. You stop the hurting by living. Overcome the hurt. Things can always get better. Life is full of possibilities, death is just shitty.

[Kot]

Bah, whatever.
It's not like I have the courage to end it anyway.

[Truean]

Things are all bulletpoints today. I'm out of touch, always was. You're either viewed as bulletpoints or ignored as a wall of text.

People don't care, rushing to do nothing and complain of boredom or expectations not met.

Cause, effect, proportion, correlation, are ignored. Only results and destination are valued, routes forgotten or hated, travel complained about.

Oddly, people demand I listen to their ranting voice and never speak, or only sparingly, if I really must.

I suppose I shall adapt and master it all again.

I am glad if this leads to brevity returning as the soul of wit, but not if that soul is but a ghost, dead, cut and crying for purpose, finding none.

[TheBiggerFish]

*hugs Truean*

[Gentlefish]

I'm glad for all this "don't do it" talk

But I'm also glad you guys are strong enough to share that here. Seriously. That's pretty hard to do. I don't think I've ever told anyone the times I've felt like offing myself.

Please keep sharing. It helps, doesn't it? Talking to other people about your hurt. I mean, it doesn't help when they call you selfish or a coward. But those people are wrong, anyway.

Things must really be tough right now for the unknown to be better than the known. But things have a way of balancing out. It gets better, it always does, so long you have life.

[TheBiggerFish]

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*hugs Gentlefish.  And Kot again.*

I'm doing a lot of indiscriminate Internet hugging today, it seems...

If it helps, it helps, I guess.

[Spehss _]

I've posted countless times on here now about wanting to off myself. It's pretty much a normal unsurprising thing at this point. Or I'd think it would be. :v

That said, I'm not going to. It's just hypothetical rhetoric right now. At least not until my parents have died and I still have no job or friends or plans for majors in college or after college and still have constant ennui, depression, and dissatisfaction at life. So that's probably anywhere between 5 to 20 years or so more time to get my life out of the gutter.

On the upside, I actually did schoolwork most of tonight instead of slacking off after class. Still have some bullshit calculus homework to work through but whatever, progress. Feeling like I got some shit done.