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[JoshuaFH]

... Need help?

[CobaltKobold]

More like "help stopping"

[ToonyMan]

Oh, you're so witty with your funny.

[CobaltKobold]

Well, I have ascended (on NAO)...moseying o'er to nethack thread.

[JoshuaFH]

What'd you ascend as?

Anyway, I'm going back to college tomorrow, and I'm coming back home on the 19th.

I'm wondering what I should do with my last few hours here.

[CobaltKobold]

chaotic female human Valkyrie. something like 3.5M points (I had decided to at least try for the score table- was about 600k short then)You went to your reward with 3571482 points,
First altar was chaotic, and I had a wish to burn, so...opposite alignment go!
A samurai was left in the middle of rodney's place, with YA(V)SD...
  You finish taking off your gloves.
  You wield the cockatrice corpse in your bare hands.


You turned to stone in Gehennom on dungeon level 39 with 1306529 points,
one'f'm had a jabberwocky mount from VotD down midway through Gehennom. they're quite awesome for that.

[JoshuaFH]

Jabberwocky mount? Flippin' sweet!

I can just imagine:

"Snicker Snack this you asshole!"

[CobaltKobold]

Yeah, I spent some time in VotD once I noticed a polytrap- I still had some kind of pet(s). They're awesome because they're flying mounts, which is better than levitation OR nonlevitation in a lot of ways.
Also do a lot of damage/attacks, though it doesn't seem to attack unless you do- so hard to level'em up while riding.

[JoshuaFH]

Nice.

Anyway, I'm leaving back for college now. I'll talk to you all when I have the time!

I'll be sure to return to creative projects and finish what I started!

[JoshuaFH]

Finally got me some internet.

I feel like shit though. I'm trying to be more sociable, but alot of times I can't do more than smile and pretend that I care what the other person is saying. I can't think of anything to say alot of the time. Socializing seems to be littered with dozens of emotional traps, all of which are designed to make me feel like shit.

I'll just have to get used to my days being rollercoasters of fear, anxiety, and depression though, and then tell myself to not worry, and just focus on my schoolwork. Though, even though I may be in a new environment, it feels like I'll always be the same shitty person no matter what.

Maybe I'm just having a bad day, but why can't I just have consistent days, instead of all this up-down crap?

[Footkerchief]

I dunno.  Social anxiety disorder?  Whatever it is, you obviously should get checked out by a mental health professional.

[Reasonableman]

Just don't let it affect your studies. My school actually has a psychological counseling center that I found out about too late. Could might maybe look into that.

[JoshuaFH]

I cheered up with some Texas Holdem, but I do always feel like I'm missing out on some skills that differentiates myself from other people. In a negative way, of course.

Like, for instance, my biggest fear is making people think I'm emotionally needy, so to prevent that, I never ask anyone for anything, I never try to hang out with anybody, I pretty much won't start a conversation that isn't already very obvious, or force my way into anybody's group. Though, I think by doing this, I've condemned myself to defacto loneliness.

Though, it does feel VERY weird when people want to hang out with me, and not the other way around, and I'm so used to these ideals I follow, plus the whole inferiority complex thing, that makes it seems bizarre.

[JoshuaFH]

Oh, also, new screenname. Yay.

[ToonyMan]

Inb4 what FH means.