Janet, you are NOT a bed person.
Now, lieing might make you a STUPID person, but considering the strength of emotions involved it's really quite excusable.
Leaving the forums, as I said on wave, is not a good solution. You might consider something like having someone else check all your messages and PMs thou. Probably Milly.
You can't influence your feelings, and thus you can't be responsible for them, and thus you have absolutely no reason to feel guilty about it. Considering what you have said before, the same argument might apply to some of your actions as well.
That you will never meet anyone here is plain false, as evidenced by the fact that you are currently talking with us. Sure, text is limiting, but that is not the same thing at all.
I REALLY recommend that you video call WD, actually just getting the necessary hardware and software and software and then letting him call you have a few psychological advantages, And spill your hearts content out about all of this. I'm not saying this is a good idea, I suck at this kind of thing, but my intuition tells me this.
Never ever lie, and the only reason for not sharing everything you know and think is it being trivial, irrelevant, or lacking the time. In short, be honest, always. this holds dabble true for people you care about.
Oh, and another thing that might help you not feel so guilty; it dosn't sound like you ever actually disliked his girlfriend at all, just the idea of him having a girlfriend in general. the consepts can be surprisingly hard to distinguish if you''re not trained in distinguishing close concepts.
Or maybe I'm just babbling nonsense...
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*Hugs Janet* Warning - while you were typing 15 new replies have been posted. You may wish to review your post.*sees workerdrone return declatations of love in and F-bombed fashion*
Wow, this is like, romantic actually... Well I guess if you can sleep with your sister you can have two love interests at once? The mormons seem to manage it aright.
We are all your friends janet. I to respet you, am proud to call you my friend etc. And I would be devastated if I couldnt talk to you. I do that much, much to rarely. (stupid timezones)
You do stupid things all the time, it's just one of the things hat makes you lovable. YOu have my forgiveness in advance for any stupid thing you might do.
Except suicide. If you suicide I'll F**king kill you.
I have to say that I get a little jealous sometimes hearing about the hilarious or moving conversations the rest of you have with each other. Like I'm on the outside of this great party looking in, like I'm missing something. Maybe I should get on Steam chat or something. But I am glad to know you guys, that means you too Janet.
Wait, are you me or something? I feel exactly that to.
Janet, you're awesome and wonderfull, never, ever forget that.
I love all you guys. Sometimes I feel like I don't know you, due to the whole internet thing, but those are just moments of stupidity and depression. I am proud to be your friend.
I f***king love you guys.
Now, I suggest we all group hug each other in a cuddly fashion! You can't hug withoute me, I'm the forum resident hugmaster!
*Hugs everyone in a loving fashion* (type "*hugs back*" now.)