I'M EIGHT kilograms of gold away from being a rich fuck, but alas. Also hello i'm 23 years old and nobody cares about my age. :v
Anyhoo, time to post a few things that have made me feel better about myself in the past week or two. First of all, i applied for a job, which would be a first outside of a single volunteer position. Granted, it's only as a christmas assistant (as they call it) in a small toy store, and it's far from sure that i'll even get the position, but hey, it felt like a step forward in life after i've been standing in the same spot for a gorillion years.
Also, yesterday, i took a solitary walk outside, this being notable because normally i don't go for leisurely walks anywhere without my older brother in tow. At all. This would be the first time in years where i've just strolled around with no particular purpose, accompanied by me, myself and I. It was quite nice, a bit like taking a break from reality and letting my mind wander as much as my feet. And, on the way back, i passed by some middle aged man who gave me a nice little smile, which i of course reciprocated, and this made my day that little bit nicer. I should squint due to bright light more often, it makes me look happy.
Also also, mom seems to have recovered from the perceived shock of me dropping out of my study, which, for a few days, made the air ICE COLD in between us. She might also finally have realized that it's not her responsibility to find the right study for me, and in fact she seems LESS prone to getting pissy now than before. Either that, or i'm getting better at saying the right things, but either way, happiness looks better on her than anger does. :v