Yeah, I'mma start in seriousness this winter break. There's no way in hell I can start this semester (i.e. do much more than eat an occasional salad and do 50-100 men for kendo a day, as far as diet improvement and stuff goes), with it as completely and totally screwed up as it is, but next semester is going to be wonderful. I'm going to review prerequisite material before the courses start, make sure I have a break at the end of this semester and the beginning of next semester, keep up with the stuff I've started doing in order to keep my room clean and my mind happy, and all those other things. Like ordering textbooks on time (i.e. early). That's honest-to-goodness the biggest factor that's come up in terms of "things that will be changed for next semester or else."
Actually, what I did this semester was a lot of necessary internal work in order to recognize who I really am, how I am, what I should be doing, and so on. I've spent a long time being rather excessively repressed and not enjoying it at all. Trying more than anything else to follow someone else's ideals for being... I realize I may be kind of annoying with the "have I mentioned that I am bisexual and considering cross-dressing today?" thing, but first off, there's no way I can talk about it with the vast bulk of the people I know IRL, and second off, I'll get bored eventually. It's just exciting, because I've been closeted-without-even-knowing-it-but-actually-sort-of-knowing-it for a very, very long time.
Dunno. All I can say is that I sleep 8 hours a night most days of the week and eat enough every day, and this is happening for the first time in my entire school career at any level. I'm not doing that much better in school, but on the other hand I no longer feel crazy, and I suspect that in the near future I will be doing quite a bit better--because this is also the first time that I've been awake and cognizant enough at all times to actually trouble-shoot what I'm doing and make friends.
And it's also the first time that I've been consistently happy. Stressed, yes, but actually happy-and-not-depressed-all-the-time.
Huh.
Maybe this is more important than the grades I received this semester.