Then you realize that it doesn't get better then you just stop caring because it's okay because your ALIVE and it's all really just chill from there. BRO IS ALWAYS BRO.
Nah, it's not okay. I'll seek happiness, even if I have to tear down the heavens to get it.
I used to keep this sort of motto around to look at from time to time: "If you hit a wall, punch through and keep running." Well, I've hit a wall, and I'm going to get through it if it kills me. Or I'll grow wings and fly over. Either way, I'm getting past it.
... Some people say I'm too extreme. I say they're too uncomfortable with bloody-minded determination.
Hell, most of my best work comes at times of boredom or creative frustration (not like mental blocks; more like emotionally going haywire).
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Ah, memories. I gotta look back at my notes. I have roughly, or over, 15 years of this kind of crap. Will take some time to filter through. I remember I came up with some definitively awesome ideas.
Oh, I know what you're talking about! When I'm frustrated, I build things, too. Usually just novel ideas, or cathedrals made of condiment bottles, or "flying machines" made out of things found in the kitchen... but you're right, that's very helpful. I might have to try to make something later.
I also clean things (once did my mom's kitchen floor three times on my hands and knees, without halt) to help me calm down. Though usually I live in an incredible mess of stuff spewed all over the place, times of unhappiness always see me trying to reorganize my life by reorganizing what I find around me.
... I suppose it's sort of poetic, in a way =)
Somehow, I feel like this was all for the best and that now, I'll be able to move on and fulfill my destiny. I know I sound somewhat odd for talking about that, but I've always felt that there was something that I had to do. I'm alive for a reason, and there's a reason why I've been drawn in this direction, and there's something I've lived my life for. I just have to find it.
This may be delusional, but at least it's something to hold onto.
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