Strictly speaking, a fan character is not a self-insert by nature. [...] But it's their existence in general a problem, that's something slightly different that I don't quite agree with.
For me, it has to do with the implications to outside observers that I possibly have fan characters in other fandoms The issue goes a little further than "AM might have fan character
S". It's more like,
"AM might have multiple fan characters" --> "AM has fan characters in different fandoms" --> this hypothetical person who happens think about things more overly analytically than I do may think "other fandoms aren't as loose with their concept of existence, so AM is comfortably with essentially self-inserting herself in stories", which I am actually very uncomfortable with.
But that's just me being obsessive about what the implications of things I do may lead others to think. Not that it's a very influential factor in things I choose to say here, though. It's just one of the several different ways I think about stuff.
I disagree with the idea that their very existence is a problem.
For more clarity on the stuff I wrote above, this quote is one that I agree with. I don't mind others having fan characters that are in other fandoms with strict boundaries set on what their canon universe is and is not (for lack of better words), but I somehow feel hesitant to have that apply to me.
On lucid dreams, I don't have dreams that often (disregarding this thing I once read that claimed that you dream every night but don't always remember your dreams (though I don't know if there's a way to monitor whether or not one is dreaming, since I don't know if REM sleep necessitates dreams, or how they would even know that (okay, enough about the technicalities of sleeping))), so trying to have one would probably be like buying a chance to get a lottery ticket. It's an attempt to do something sealed within a risk to be able to attempt it, and the risk is that I won't be able to sleep because when my sleepin' meds kick in I can only tell if I'm tired if-- aaand I think I'm starting to be hard to understand now so I'll stop.
See all this text? This is the result of me getting ninja'd mulitple times with posts that aren't topic-changing when I'm still thinking of stuff to type. Not that any of you guys could have known I was typing anything, I'm just holding back less of my thoughts and their consequential elaborations than usual.