After reading all that I cant help but wonder if I'm a bad roleplayer because I created my character on a template of myself. In other words, Hurgan is not evil because I am not evil, Hurgan is not stupid (even though I gave him below average int) because I am not stupid. But on top of that I created Hurgan with a goal in mind, normally I feel more comfortable playing an intellectual/mage, but what better character to build a fortress than a hard working dwarf?
Of course creating a character seperate from myself would be impossible, the complexity of the human mind is too complex for me to actually create a virtual one within my current physical one.
Edit: I'm getting confused now. The only way to solve this is for me to ask others opinions on my roleplay, so what is everyones opinion on my roleplay?
I also just noticed that I said that I normally feel more comfortable playing an intellectual/mage, which is true because I do infact feel comfortable playing a hard working dwarf.
Edit: Ok so now I can only conclude that it is completely impossible for me to actually consciously review the finer points of roleplay, I dont know if I do them automatically without realising or if nobody actually notices.
This is what I get for staying up till 2:00am.
Edit: Hm, I actually wonder if I would feel more comfortable playing an intellectual/mage. I get the feeling I wouldnt. Perhaps Hurgan is actually a gateway into my own soul, spooky!
Edit: I actually cant recall my motives in the creation of Hurgan except that we were all going to get together and have fun building a fortress while roleplaying. I'm going to have to come back tomorrow and completely sort this post out, for now I'm just putting down anything that comes into my head.
Edit: I think I've got it, I am not a serious roleplayer. I didnt put much thought into Hurgan when making him and I dont roleplay him in great depth. He doesnt have a history or motives, my goal is to make a fortress, he's just the pawn that aspires to complete this goal, building up his own personality as he goes. I'm the player behind him, but when he's walking around interacting with people, where do I go? Am I actually still here?
I dont actually know who Hurgan is even though I roleplay him, it seems that he is his own character. I guess thats the power of the situation for you.
In that sense, theres a part of me you can never remove from any character I make, that I'm kind hearted and fair (excuse my immodesty). I simply cannot play any character that is truely evil, when I do I mess up by being unable to slit the good guy's throat and letting him go free in return for his belongings. However when I play a character, I put myself in a situation in which that character, not myself, is dominant. That would explain why I'm an automatic roleplayer, when someone speaks to Hurgan in game, they are speaking to Hurgan, not me. So in return, Hurgan will interact with them depending on how I would expect Hurgan to behave if I was watching him from an outside position. So in other words, Hurgan acts like other people would think he should act, except the other people are mostly replaced with me.
So I play him as a dwarf unaware of all this stuff thats going on, but its good to finally get an out of the box view of it!
Edit: Thats the end of it, I've figured it out and now I'm going to sleep.
[ April 04, 2008: Message edited by: Dark ]