Another party coming up on the 30th. Can I be arsed to go? I doubt it. Had a mini chat with X wherein I tried to convince her that going to a party and remaining 100% sober through the whole thing is not fun.
Thing is, I think she manages to have fun under just about any circumstances.
If I recall correctly, I've actually only been to one of the school-wide drinkfests. And even the heaviest drinkers admitted that that one went a bit overboard. But still, looking at the pictures from some of the other ones, I really don't see how anyone could have fun without being completely and utterly hammered. Unless you delight in watching and remembering all the drunken exploits of those around you, which admittedly is a bit fun. But only for the first half-hour or so.
The first and only time I've ever really tried drinking an alcoholic beverage was on New Year's eve, with the glass of rat-piss champagne. As such, I've never been drunk. People don't seem to understand why I don't want to get drunk.
I try to tell them that I don't like losing all control, which is what seems to be the whole point of getting drunk in the first place. You lose your inhibitions and start doing things you never would have done in your right mind.
Under other circumstances, I might have tried doing this, if only to try and have a good time. However, this is Kagus of the wonderfully corrupt intentions we're talking about here. Considering the fact that I can scare myself with the suggestions (I can't really call them "urges", since I don't feel any strong desire to do them) when I'm
not following through with them, I shudder to think what would happen if I lost the self control that keeps the demons inside my head.
Someone could get seriously hurt. Or repulsed. Or... Well, I'd really rather not discuss that.
However, I am protected by my ridiculously stubborn personality. All I need is someone to try and push me into something, no matter how gently, and I can safely say that I will most certainly abstain from whatever that happens to be for the next few months. I cannot abide people trying to tell me what to do when I have already stated that I have no intention of doing so.
Ironically enough, I was wondering if anybody had opinions as to whether or not I should sign up for the upcoming party. The cost is at most a little under $6, and they'll be providing transport to and from the place. I will also be armed with the knowledge that I can call a cab at any time and just hitch a ride out of there. Unfortunately, knowing my cheapskate ways, I'd probably wait through a whole night of drunkards stumbling over me and indulging in personal pleasures with each other just so I could save $30 of cab fare.
Good points:
- Several gals who might be at least mildly interested in me, and who might get drunk enough to do something about it
- Free Sprite
- The chance to observe and mentally record lots of nasty things
- The chance to observe and record lots of nasty things with my phone's built-in camera
Bad points:
- Annoying Brit
- Disgusting Sri Lankan
- Runty Greek that X is still gaga for
- My roommate
- Several girls who might be at least mildly interested in me, and who might get drunk enough to pass out and remain unconscious for the rest of the night
Hmm. Well, now you see the point breakdown of why I don't bother with parties. Essentially, I'm enough of a paranoid control-freak that I can't stand the thought of letting loose, and I'm too much of a nice guy to take advantage of someone who is under the influence.
Of course, I could just go around complaining in as strong of an Irish accent as I can muster, tossing in outdated university-grade English terms and sayings while jabbering on senselessly about why I'm really the nicest person in the whole school, now fuck me.
Please.
Only problem with that is the annoying Brit, since he can't stand it when someone is using a U.K. accent, and he is one of those people who actually thinks it is not only possible, but also prudent to try and get everyone to do things his way.
I suppose I could just do Texan... That would ensure a failure t' c'myunicate.
As it stands now, I think I'm probably just gonna stay here, listen to the music that
I like (woohoo 20Gb of newly-acquired tracks!), and play guitar and video games. Maybe I'll browse through that illustrated Kama Sutra again (for those of you who haven't, it's actually kinda funny just leafing through it. The stuff that's talked about in there is ridiculous outdated mumbo-jumbo), or perhaps pick up the book on Tarot.
Or I could try memorizing the bible... I've been meaning to do that.
Nah, too difficult when it's in another language. Besides, I don't think my willpower is
quite strong enough to power me into such an ordeal.
Any comments? Mind you, I reserve the right to completely ignore any and all of you should the whim strike me to do so.