Bear with me, this entry is a little in the past, since I couldn't figure out Hikan's appropriate reaction to his lover's death.
The events of 10th Moonstone, 1068, continued.
Hikan grumbled at Jools as he and the donkey-lover walked out of Dodik's. "This better be good, Assface, I don't get to hustle Dodik down for answers much these--"
"Hikan," Jools pointed with his sword. "Look."
Hikan's heart sank as he looked at the dead body of Udib Arrowsalves. "Oh, no." He quickened his pace and headed for Udib's corpse. Jools kept up. "How did it happen?" He asked as they made their way.
"Goblin wrestlers." Jools debated whether to give Hikan the details or not. "Broke her in half. We were too late to save her, and some of them got away."
Hikan knelt down next to Udib's corpse and removed her helmet, tracing lines along her injuries. "It looks like she died in pain." Hikan observed absentmindedly.
"She died in my arms, Hikan." Jools said, springing Hikan from his stupor.
Hikan wondered for a moment. "Did she say anything?"
Jools hesitated. "She told me to tell you that she loved you."
Hikan chuckled. "I don't believe that for a second. Maybe you'll tell me what she really said sometime." Hikan said. He fell silent for a moment, and looked at Jools. "If you don't mind...." Jools nodded and left. Hikan ruffled through his inside pockets and produced a gold ring. "I," he began, slightly choked up. "Bought this for you. I didn't mean to." He slid the ring onto the ring finger of Udib's right hand. "I guess you can keep it now."
Then Hikan fell silent, unsure of whether he should say more, or whether he should feel more. He stood up, took a long last look, and then turned back to the fortress.
The journal of Hikan Riddlewire, hidden in the wastes.
Entry for the week of 8th Opal, 1068
It's been a month since Udib's death. I don't feel sad about it. In fact, I don't really feel anything about it. The place is a lot emptier without her. Without her yelling at me all the time. A lot messier, too. I guess she cleaned up sometimes when she was around. I guess I never noticed.
Her funeral was nice. Aryn attended, thank ibmat, and he delivered her eulogy. He talked about duty, honor, standard stuff, really. It was pretty small. Me, Athel, and Aryn. I expect my funeral will be smaller.
I've drunk so much water I'm basically drowning myself in it. I don't think I've quite enjoyed the taste of water so much as I do now. Udib didn't like that I drunk water instead of alcohol like a proper dwarf, but she's dead now, so she can't stop me.
Istrath's stupid fucking signal doesn't work. I've tried it out on the poison temple a few times, and the vigilante doesn't show up. Only a bunch of curious dwarves come around asking what I'm doing, and it makes me look like an idiot. When I find out who the vigilante is, I am going to beat him senseless. I'm tired of this crap.
I've been tired of a lot of things recently. I guess that's why I've skipped out on doing work for a few days a week, just too tired. And when I do go to work, I just don't care. Migrursut will fall in a few weeks if this keeps up, but that's the way it's always been. I don't see how anything I'm doing is affecting anything, really.