Milos didn't even notice he was holding his breath until Aurelia sat down next to him, to which he breathed a small sigh of relief. He had been looking down at his lap, and now he felt like he could look up just a little bit with that ounce of encouragement that Aurelia gave to him.
"Y... you really think so...? Thank-"Oh, why did he have to look up? Couldn't he have just responded to Aurelia while he was still looking at his lap? He thought for even just a split second that King Himos' daughter was looking right back at him, did she catch his gaze? Was it too afraid? Not afraid enough?
Which was it? And then just as a stupid reflex, he met her gaze right back, to which he immediately yanked his head back down to his lap, fear gripping him once more. He tried to whisper to himself.
Just a curiosity, just a curiosity-Then it hit him. The question of if they were all mercenaries. He knew what it meant. It was no secret to him. She didn't think he was capable, and her critique of him just solidified it in stone. She didn't even think he
was a mercenary and was just... some whimpering child... just like her father did.
"......"He tried so hard to say that he was an adult. He tried... but couldn't find the words. Who was to say the princess wouldn't hate him for talking back and consider telling her father? Suddenly becoming painfully aware of the idea that the princess' eyes might still be on him, Aurelia's eyes probably on him, and who knows
who else's eyes were on him, he suddenly took a great interest in his drink, trying to hide his hurt expression by grabbing it and taking a big drink. Problem... Milos had never had alcohol, and he just tried to swallow quite the amount of it. A rather loud cough came from his throat, as well as the quick sloshing of wine that began to run down his hands due to lack of care taken and spill onto his pants.
The self-hatred that Milos allowed to creep into his body stabbed him like a knife, knowing that he was just proving both Ella and Himos' points... what kind of an adult was he that he couldn't even hold his liquor? In a hurry, Milos tried to save face by setting the glass back on the table, pray the tablecloth wouldn't stain, and hurriedly wipe his hands on his pants without caring if
they stained. All the while, silently begging...
"Please don't be looking, please don't be looking, please don't be looking, please-"He really tried to keep it under his breath, but it wasn't too hard for Aurelia or Grae to hear.