Hey, me too. And I slept a little better last night.
Honestly, it's not so much that I trust people easily. Or maybe it is. I'm not entirely sure. Frankly speaking, logical debates in this game are just as difficult to parse as any other argument. There's not really any good ways to do it. I find that an emotional reading of other people's posts are a much better way to do it.
Alright, that sounds like a fair explanation. Definitely makes me understand your picks for town quite a bit now so that alone really helps in my judgements.
Or, I did, until people called me scummy but voted for Deus anyway. That just makes me fear that Deus might be Town and then he gets lynched and it just moves directly into my own lynch. Which is a MUCH worse alternative that had I just been lynched alone. If Deus is scum, it turns out peachy-keen, but then what was scummy about me? It really screws with my compass.
Of course, that type of thinking is scummy, but I'm sort of still paranoid, which isn't all that rational to begin with. I can only try to rationalize it.
Essentially, I'm likely emotionally compromised.
Well, I'd be a bit sus if people called me scummy and then voted for the one I said was scum, though then I would be worried about if it was merely a ploy to make me doubt myself, retract my statement, and get the finger pointed at me and then have me be the one with the noose instead of the one I said was scum. And don't worry, I'm always paranoid, well, almost always...Actually, not really, Its not paranoia when people are actually out to get you, is it? Also, try to take a few breaths and a good moment to try and not be compromised...as being compromised is bad.
I was thinking Caz was Town based on his buying of the power on Day 1. I actually think his defense was just fine, and it really put me at odds with IcyTea because they were arguing about stupid garbage. If I had to re-review it, it's not really anything special. It's not a Town move, but it's not a scum move. It's just a power move.
I would actually not be opposed to Caz being lynched now. If you are voting for him, it's likely that he IS scummy, because I think you're more likely Town than not.
So you thought his power play plan was a decent move, that makes sense considering it honestly wasn't a bad move, though certainty wasn't a town or scum move as you say yourself. And yeah, I'm voting for him because I really really think he is scum and if he isn't I'll genuinely be surprised. As for the spiral of scummyness.
But, that just raises the question that's continually plaguing me: How can I trust that feeling if I can't even trust my feeling on scum picks? It's like it's own downward spiral, where I continually question everything until I've neutralized my thinking and picks.
Are you starting to see the issue? I'm scummy because I can't make up my mind, but I can't make up my mind because I'm trying to be helpful to Town, but I can't be helpful to Town because I'm thinking about how scummy I am. Each issue only compounds itself upon the last, and now I'm drowning in more and more problems.
So in other words, tantrum spiral but mafia edition. Sounds fun. To be more serious though I fully get what you mean there, a cycle that just goes down and down like a aircraft in a stall until it hits the ground hard and the fuel tank explodes. I think if you get the time, walk away from the screen and think about what you have read, staring at the screen and rereading what was said is sometimes not as effective as laying down and staring at the ceiling lost in thought about what was written, or staring out the window and doing the same...It works for me at the very least anyway...
Who do I trust? I can't rationalize just following someone else's train of logic without supplementing my own, but then I'm just a petty follower, which has worked occasionally in games, but in those games, I could always praise the potential sweet grip of death by scum in those games as a last resort for everything. There is no such thing in this game. The only way out is to do so poorly that you get lynched. Frankly, that's terrifying, but probably only to me. It's a festering type of fear, eating away at my patience and reason.
So, hopefully, that helps you understand where I'm at. I don't want to just "step away" from the game, because we literally have very little time left, and I'm sitting here just twiddling my thumbs trying to figure out what I even want. Do I want Deus lynched or Caz lynched? Am I screwed either way? I even have thought of dozens of other potential plans, including lynching myself. None of them stand out to me as THE plan.
Your thoughts?
Don't let fear eat away at you, you shouldn't have to worry about getting lynched or following, and sometimes, when you trust no one, the best one to rely on is the least or second least suspicious person. And yes, this really helps me understand where you are coming from, maybe the coming night will let you relax and recuperate a bit allowing you to hopefully be back at your A game, or at least give you if not a plan, a vague idea of what you need to do. As for my own thoughts on all of this...I'll be honest, I hate to say this but I think I might be trusting you, which worries me because there is almost always that little bit in the back of my mind saying "You'll regret this", then again I get that alot when I start to trust someone. Still, you are off the list for now, and while I'm not certain if you are town or not yet, I certainty trust you a bit more...Though this all could be you trying to use the tactic that got you to trust TBF on me but done in a much more elegant manor that has logic in it as well, after all you are the king of this game for a reason, but I'm going to give you a chance, hopefully its not the last thing I do...
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