Also, Clate is super OP. He throws stone like a Diver who has reinforced his Akhmah roll 10x, with no side effects.
naturegirl's about to get erased from existence.
Do I not have good nerve? Any advice on something else that might be less dangerous? I don’t think my character is well equipped for combat
well, it might be fine.
you have to make 5 nerve rolls for the Dive path, then one knowledge roll for the spell and one final nerve roll.
since you took the Silent Night, you're Nerve rolls, except the last one, will be at advantage (final nerve and other stat rolls are never at advantage or disadvantage)
you have 13 nerve and 2 Diving, so you are rolling to get below a 15 on a d20. So, each nerve roll has a 70% success rate until you miss one. But since you are rolling at advantage , any missed rolls get a second roll, so at the moment you have effectively a 91% success chance per nerve roll, not counting the final roll. so, your odds look like this
path:
nerve roll: 91%
nerve roll: 91%
nerve roll: 91%
nerve roll: 91%
nerve roll: 91%
if you miss one, you lose a point of nerve and the remaining rolls all are rolled against a 14 instead of a 15. Miss a second and it drops again, and so forth. Looks like you have a ~40% chance to lose one nerve or so (very rough estimate)
THEN!you roll against Knowledge (which governs balaram) to see if your spell works. you have 13 kow and 2 diving, so you are rolling to get below 15, so you have a 70% chance to succeed here
AND!you roll one more Nerve check to see if there is backlash from the dive. you have 13 nerve and 2 diving, so again, 70~ chance of NOT being affected by the Sphere of EN - the uncreate sphere. The scariest sphere in the game. Also, if you lose any points of nerve on the dive path, your chance of failure increases.
we've had, let me count .... at least five Diving failures at the final nerve roll in game so far. Two got the being possessed by some entity form the sphere involved (Es and Balaram), two got the character horribly mutated in some way (those were fun!), and one had the character essentially break down into a sobbing mess.
ALSOthe size or effectivenes of the spell depends on how much you reinforce the associated spheres (in this case, Balaram and EN). Since you are not reinfrcing those spheres (which requires additional nerve rolls), don't expect a huge effect.