When I was young, me and my friends used to play on the streets of this Spire. We tied a bunch of rags together for our ball and kick it all along the Artisans Avenue. Back then, it was the largest street of the city, a snake that went up and down many floors, filled to the brim with blacksmiths, glassblowers, jewelers and any sort of trade one could imagine. As a young lad, I was apprenticed in a little perfume shop near the docks. Those days, it was the custom for members of the Guild to grow their flowers themselves, so the shop in question had a backyard filled with any you can ever imagine, from the rose to the narcissus, with a cherry tree at its center.
I lack the words to express what that tree meant for me. From its flowers I made the work that would qualify me as journeyman, from its wood I carved a ring and never once he asked of me nothing in exchange. It gave me shade when I was hot, comfort when I had grief and hope when everything felt lost. Under him I exchanged my vows and consummated my marriage with Selina, the master´s eldest daughter, which I had fallen in love with during my apprenticeship.
War seemed distant those days, but nevertheless I applied to conscription when it was due. I was, and am, a patriot at heart and I truly believed on the righteousness of the cause. Of the war I will talk no more. I fulfilled my duty as it was expected of me, met a lot of good friends and buried most of them. At some point, all the things that happened start to blend with themselves and this tribunal can scrounge better testimony of the war other than myself. No, what I want to talk about only regards my home, Kasgyr, for which all the blood was spilled.
You see, every time I came back to the Spire, everything seemed a little bit more off. At first I just thought that my homesickness was playing tricks on me, but once I paid more attention, certain details started to surface. The whole Spire, it was…different. People which had been neighbors all their lives didn´t even greet themselves on the street. Doors of places which had welcomed everyone started to close down, one by one. Old Tom Jones, Lord Siegvald the Mighty, Jennie “the Fold”, street performers which livened up the streets of Kasgyr in my childhood had been exiled from the streets in the endless search for manpower, their jolly laughs substituted by the legion of the crippled which nobody has the heart to take care of. Ancient bronze engravings in the spirestone itself were stripped and melted, substituted by endless posters extolling the glory of Kasgyr and Kasgyrians, each glued over the corpse of another of its brethren. It had taken years and years of war to change the city. But I still was oblivious to the disappearance of the home of my youth. The ignorance was almost a blessing.
It all started around the age my Enriquetta was born. Sudddenly, everywhere in the city, plots of land were “repurposed” for the production of a new kind of wood. As soon as a letter from my wife informed me, I returned to the city, all for naught. When nobody was at home, Guildmen fell the cherry tree as it blossomed, mashing the flowers of the garden under their metal tipped boots. They loaded the tree into a car and carried it with themselves, like thieves fleeing with their ill gotten gains.
They left a bag with seeds and a timetable for the recollection of the lumber. Enriquetta might have been too young to remember, but my spouse and I were livid. Yet we swallowed our anger. There was nothing that could be done to counter an imperial edict, and we both knew that if other people could sacrifice their own lives for the war effort, we could spare a tree and some flowers. Goverment subsidies, offered in newly minted coin, paid to change our old wooden ceiling for a crystal one, turning the house into a hothouse and allowing us to carry on the family business. Yet we couldn´t let go. Every moment we passed near those trees taugth us another the flaw, no matter how little. Their bark sandpaper, their sap rotten eggs, its silhouette grotesque, and so on and so on. The mere sight of them made us bitter and angry, and soon our arguments were only stopped when the time to take arms again resumed. One day, my wife took matters into her own hands, sold the plot of land to a neighbor and erected a fence that separated our home from the bacckyard. For a time, there was peace.
But nothing lasts forever. “We cannot let ourselves be drowned by the tides of progress”, the Guild Masters, the newspapers and the posters said. And so, the tides of progress devastated the Artisans´ Avenue. One by one, workshops started to close down, substituted by by factories in the outskirts of the Spire, each employing dozens of unqualified workers. As hundreds of our prevous neightbors, we received our eviction notice. But this time we weren´t going to give up. We demanded, we begged, we bribed. We used each and every one of our favors and conections to save our home. We were slandered, pictured as uneducated fools at best and Wrethian agents at worst. Rocks flew and crystals broke, but the house withstood it all. In the end, it was us who broke.
As time passed, the papers lost interest with us. The people followed through. Suddenly, we weren´t the talk of the day, just some strange oddity that most had forgotten, like a two-headed dog or an funny shaped turnip. We enjoyed it, for a bit. We had won. No more lies, no more slander, no more paintings on the porch. Things were going to turn out that they were supposed to. We would buy back the backyard and regain the right to plant whatever we liked. We would fill it with flowers, from the rose to the narcissus, with a cherry tree at its center. Our daughter would grow with it and learn to love it as passionately as we had.
But cold hard reality started to seep in. We were the only shop in a ghost street and our customers had been swayed by the flashy displays of the shops in the commercial districts. My pay wasn´t enough to support the business and we could only sell our products for a fraction of the real price in order to compete with the industrial vats. The same shops that had displaced us now reaped the benefits, selling our works to the Princess herself. Our house was infested by rats, cockroaches and buckets for the leaks that we hadn´t got the money to repair. While the fight against adversity gave us strength, now there was nothing to fight for. Only the daily grind.
By this time, it was time for Enriquetta to go to school, the closest one of which was 2 kilometers away. We looked at our finances and saw them dwindling, day by day. For our daughter, we relented. In a week, we had a new house, in the middle of a residential district. My wife found a job in a factory as a forewoman. The deadlock in which my career had been finally lifted. We kept some of the flowers. We even learned to live with the same wood that had started it all. There was no choice, as it was everywhere now. But it was worth it. It had to be. Our daughter got friends her age, a brand new school and a house free of leaks and pests. Yet, we couldn´t shake the feeling that we had left our true home behind.
The years passed. Between tour and tour I saw my daughter grow in spurs. As a good citizen, she was diligent ,untiring and disciplined. Always reminding us to not forget to recycle every bottle cap and old pan. I will never forget when she went and grabbed our entire cutlery to shove it down the scrappers carriage. We had to eat with our hands for a week, but the all the laughs we had at the expense of the little ditz were compensation enough. She stumbled through life like a child only can, and even delivered the speech at her graduation ceremony from primary school, less than a year ago.
I do understand the necessities of war. I also do understand that we have done great things in this thirty years of war. Portents of science and technique unheard of until now have been developed. The production numbers released by the Guilds, although bloated, indicate that we produce more than ever before. Population has skyrocketed, even despite the war. But, what for? All of the resources we got, all the inventions, all the effort have gone to the war. While on our coat of arms it is written “Pride, Honour and Nobility”, we should just replace them with “War, War and War”. We have given up in all in order to feed the machine. Soon, it will be our turn to be its meal.
I consider myself a patriot and I have risen my daughter as one. We believe that a monarchy, aided by the representatives of the people is the best form of government. That upholding our traditions is paramount for our success, not just as a nation, but as human beings too. And that, when things are rough, it is the duty of every honest citizen to bring out their best to help out those in need. I have given up the tree under I met my love and the house where I lived with her most of my life. Yet I won´t stand idle while a children who loves her country with a passion I am proud of is being made a fool by the people who claim to be protecting our country, but will never understand it the way she does. I will never see her grow like a gear in the machine. I will never stand aside while this proud and beautiful country is slowly turned into a parody of itself, an empty cask for the egos of the men at the helm, a Wreth with a different name.
So yes, I confess my crimes. I conspired along like minded idiots to undermine what currently passes as Kasgyr. We published classified documents in hastily edited newspapers. We uncovered cowardice, corruption and mediocrity. We watched helplessly as the treaty with the Wrethians crashed and burned. And in the end, we called for a march. To our surprise, the people answered. We traversed the Artisans Avenue from side to side, an ocean of flags rised to greet the heavens. But it didn´t end there. While the Guildsmen tried to stop, they were overwhelmed and soon we were in front of the gates of the Palace. We asked for an audience with the Princess. Instead, we were told to turn back and disperse. Like hell we were going to do that. Trapped between squads of Guildsmen and the golden doors of the palace, we charged. Desperation breeds strength, enough in this case, to slightly open the doors to allow some of us to trickle through them. Shouting our grievances at the winds, we charged through the complex, being apprehended one by one by the palace guard. To be fair, none of us had planned anything not involving the march itself, so we were apprehended one by one by the palace guard. A mad dash, ended with a predictable ending.
But the Princess shall heard of the day the people of Kasgyr asked to be proud, honorable and noble again. I trust her to lead our country to a brighter future, where we won´t become the enemy we seek to defeat. Where we will be able to recover the glory lost. Where valiant hearts and bright minds will usher a new golden era for humanity.
Put me in chains if you must. But bear my words: either we end this war or the war shall end us.
Long live Kasgyr! Long live the Princess! Might the Lion roar again!
Liutenant Atalante Medives, 481 AR. In military trial for High Treason, and other thirty-two lesser crimes.