Well, over 80% of people have schizophrenia. Don't take drugs; if you're anti-social because of your disconnect with reality then that means you've probably recognized some self-contradictions in your beliefs system(s) and spending time self-reflecting and analyzing your worldview will resolve your schizophrenia. I believe that crippling depression in youths often stems from a conflict between perception and reality, or from abusive relationships. If your memory is unreliable then try writing a diary. I have a few million words' worth of memos and interesting tidbits I've written down over the years, sorted by key words so that I can easily search for them on my Notepad textfile. If you have trouble concentrating, then try finding something interesting that you are passionate about and it will be incomparably easier to concentrate since you'll feel that you are doing something meaningful.
It must be a significant source of cognitive dissonance to worship a deity responsible for aging, disease, death, predation, various genocides, and who allows the violent atrocities committed by and against members of whichever religion your imaginary friend of choice is affiliated with... While simultaneously valuing your own existence and well-being. I'm totally for having imaginary friends, but I don't use my imaginary friend's feelings as absolutist self-justification.
I find humanism, transhumanism, veganism, strong AI rights activism, anti-interventionist activism, and animal rights activism (basically if neoepicureanism were a word, I would use it to self-describe myself) are positive world views which allow for satisfaction from incremental positive change and the knowledge that you are optimizing your decision-making for the greater good
If you're paying people to commit genocide, or torture animals, or enslave people, then chances are, that money is not well-spent.
That's a source of depression, and the anxiety follows. I mean it's fine to take drugs but then you make yourself dependent on those drugs, when making yourself dependent on 'Logic' is a permanent, cheaper, long-term solution. So yeah.
As for laziness... Eventually we all feel the compulsion to make money, for survival. And if you have to be social to make money, well:
Everyone's An ActorSo don't feel bad about being an inanimate construct or a mathematical program or an ephemeral deterministic existence, or a soulless philosophical zombie, because it's religion that has taught us that these traits are evil and that to be valued as a person you have to be an immortal supernatural ghost and worship a genocidal deity. It's religion that has taught us that we have supernatural consciousness and that the inanimate laws of the universe are alive and intelligent. Intelligence is a product of brains, and brains with high intelligence develop consciousness - whatever that is! I like to think of myself as a cluster of neurons optimizing its risk/reward decisions for mental & physical well-being. By having a logical perspective of reality, you can have a more accurate perception of reality, and thus be better at choosing optimal decisions! And in the end, we realize that those scary things like the passage of time and pascal's wager and our lack of free will or inanimacy aren't all that relevant
Because even if there is such a thing as fate, there is nobody controlling your thoughts but yourself! And no one telling you what's meaningless and meaningful but yourself. So go make something great
Because there are other people, living the same existences as you are. And that's something to cherish.