I wasn't posting AFTER the hammer, as said by PPE, and yeah I'm acting on emotion (sorry x.x)
But the hugs is pretty much sincere--also in realizing that yeah, it's also part of the reasoning of the hammer; I'd be fine either way if there was any actual better reason.
I mean the whole day 5 I've been on slow-as-molasses internet, on my phone, which can't even type well and zooms in with every keypress I do, so I have to write by short term memory.
Tiruin, I'll explain where you could have won in a bit. Same for you, Tea.
I should've hammered Tea.
I know.
And yes there's no hard feelings to others as PEOPLE; I'll reiterate my earlier (somewhere in D2 I think) mention about that stance towards people and their actions--just like as said to Doll, the same to anyone who feels like my actions are insincere [since...that creates a really rude characterization; I can understand non-sincerity in-game. I can't, if personally made]. So it's to the action and interpretation, though a bit of time and thought helped [hence the sorry...so sorry again x.x], but just to clarify it here.
<_<
The PPE is there for that reason. I'm not a person who 'tactically' manipulates others--it's something I've been averse to no matter what I've been in (and I've graduated Psychology x.x so that's even a more indirect intensity to it, especially with my dislike of 'manipulation' of people as, both in my culture that I grew up in and my personal principles, everyone else is just like me--so I treat everyone else with how I'd like to be treated and what I'd like the best for them)
But...yeah I can see how that could've been parsed as manipulation >.<
Sorry.
It's been a really stressy week for me, as a total aside, with a bit of background as currently trying to help out people in domestic violence situations (out of forum) and stuff on that level of pressure...yeah.
It's actually MORE out of character for me to have acted as I did post--but I'm not editing it out, despite how shame-y I feel about...reacting like that. It wasn't what was happening and more an impression I received that I dwelt on unhealthily. (really sorry .-. to Lengrag too.)
Anyway should've saved the hugs for later when I would've died anyway, or not. But I was still betting to die.