Sorry my mistake entirely. Think what you like of me but to be honest calling you he is actually likely a bit better than calling you she. Around 70% of forum users are male and 90% of gamers are male. So the chances were really in favor of you being male. But statistics are not really an excuse I'm sorry. But hey I've been there
Look if you dare.
http://eyelearn.med.utoronto.ca/Lectures05-06/RedEye/images/RedEye_042.jpg
This is not my eye cus I really don't want to go dig up the pictures (And the memories.) but my eyes once looked like that (Except I have pupils.). Trust me being strangled and beaten for a couple hours can really put a new perspective on life. I feel you man.... (Woops there I go again. I should probably break that habit.) Ironicly that was probably the best thing to happen to me. Also the worst, but the best aswell I think.
"The fires of misery are hotter than any hell mankind can imagine.
And when those fires have burned away all lies and illusion then shall your eyes be truly open."
It can really give you a perspective on life and happyness. It's all in your perspective. And these kinds of things can give you a really positive one. I no longer fear death. I have faced death and realized that if I died at any one moment I would be happy with how I lived my life. My only regrets would be of the sorrow my death would inflict on others.
Don't get me wrong I'll still fight death but I no longer am afraid to die. If I die then so be it.
EDIT: Sorry didn't mean to rant like that.
[ March 31, 2007: Message edited by: Pnx ]