I've come to the conclusion that people who say things like "only talk when you have something important to say" are talking out of their arses. Everyone only notices when I do talk, not when I'm silent and I'm quiet quite a bit. I might just stop talking (and eating but that's another complaint in the line of worthless whinging I've been doing my entire life) since everyone just complains when I do.
I prefer to pull the "important" out of that particular saying, life would be fucking dull if we were only allowed to say important things. In fact, i'm bad at saying important things, i'm much better at being a fountain of ramblings. Hell, let's just say "talk when you feel like it and it isn't inappropriate", we didn't get vocal chords so we could sit around in silence. :v
Also, i decided not to
go to Flensburg after all. Yeah, i might be missing out on a few good experiences and interactions with my friends, but honestly, i feel better this way. I know it's probably just me being a weirdo, but i don't really like travelling, it makes me nervous and i find it stressful. Basically, a travel that i don't care for, to a place i don't particularly care for beyond normal, to do research that i don't care for, for a board game that i only care for in the sense that it's a group effort and i don't want to let the others down. Adding to that, we'll be sleeping over there, and i'll likely sleep badly, have a cranky stomach in the morning, and generally have very limited toilet access during the day.
Now, i've learned to deal with my bowels and travel nerves, but only if i think i'll have a good time in between that. With this, i felt like i was just going to go around thinking "when are we doneeeeeeeeee" all day, and that's not a good time. It's thankfully technically optional, but i do have to find something else to do in the mean time that's not just chillin'. I expected that, and i'm okay with it.