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[Hanslanda]

Veal and lamb are depressing as fuck.

[Kagus]

Veal and lamb are depressing as fuck.

Veal is quite depressing, yes, but "lamb" as a term for meat gets stretched to apply to as large an age range as the seller can get away with. There's a lot of adolescent/adult meat that gets marketed as lamb because that's what sells. ...And also because some people legitimately don't know what the word "mutton" even means...

And even when the "within first year" official distinction of lamb is actually adhered to, there's nothing requiring the same awful living standards of veal.


Still though, veggies are usually a bit less ethically confusing. Usually.

[Grim Portent]

Been feeling unwell of late. More so than usual anyway.

Constantly feel tired and sore, have had some odd chest pains that last a brief while and then stop, near constantly feeling hungry and hollow even when I've just eaten a meal. I've also been struggling to focus on things lately.

Some of it's probably just my depression acting up or the result of me being on a higher dosage of antidepressant, but some of the sore joints and the chest pains are kinda troubling.

[Yoink]

Arrrgh there are people talking loudly in this waiting room they should be thrown out. And stomped.

[Dunamisdeos]

Y'kno wut? I'm afraid of my family dying. Disproportionately.

I dealt with a lotta lot of death and such when I was a little kid, and I realized today that I worry basically every time they go out that a car is going to hit them as soon as they leave my sight or they'll fall in the pool and drown or some other highly unlikely absurdity. I dwell on it and mentally prepare myself for it, even. Get ready for a call at all hours of the night. That sort of thing.

Intellectually I know it's silly, but it makes me sort of sad. I live in a perfectly safe neighborhood, probably more so than most in the area, even. Don't think I've ever talked about it before now, or even acknowledged that it's not normal.

[Iduno]

Knee aches considerably less today, still a little stiff around bends and stairs. Survived the hike to, from, and beyond work to the sushi store without much trouble, so it seems to be on the mend. Not really sure how expensive healthcare things are here in NZ sans health insurance (all I've got is traveler's health insurance, dunno what qualifies for that), and from my American background, just Going to the Doctor for a Thing You Want Checked is generally a Thing You Do Not Do.

On the bright side, my girlfriend's mom is an x-ray technician, so I know who to talk to about getting it zapped if I decide I need that!

In other news:
I bid on and won a pair of small PC towers for cheap (inspired a bit by whomever's tale of finding the free alleyway garbage pc), $60 each, with modest but respectable specs. I bid on one of them for my gal pal, but she politely declined it yesterday after learning they have no wifi cards and there's no going back on the bid. Maaaaah, I'll find something to do with it. Hacker attacker PC and Kiwi Factorio server?

Maybe I'll check the freaky Jesus tech shop to see if they've got a Linux-friendly wifi dongle. Or the PB tech next to it. And before you call me out on it, they've got a menorah in the window, it's cluttered to heck and back, there's a large screen monitor displaying proverbs next to the menorah, and there's some kind of Christian Rock playing at all times. The front door is open, but roped off, you ask for what you're looking for and escorted through the wastes to the thing you seek.

Also, they have a SHALOM van in the back.

Henderson is frigging weird, man.

I mean, there's got to be a Newegg/Tigerdirect analog that'll deliver to you.

[Kagus]

Always fun finding out that you're not quite as "over" someone as you thought you were. Gotta make sure you don't get too used to not hurting.

[methylatedspirit]

I'm mentally exhausted. I've not had a coherent thought since yesterday night. I fucking wish that the world would just disappear right in front of me.

[hector13]

Go to sleep?

[Doomblade187]

I'm mentally exhausted. I've not had a coherent thought since yesterday night. I fucking wish that the world would just disappear right in front of me.

Stick with us please. If you haven't tried yet, melanin or tea may help.

[itisnotlogical]

I'm tired of being sick and weak. I just want to play videogames, drink cheap hooch, buy plastic statues of anime characters, know my wife in the biblical sense, and pass out at 2AM on a Monday morning. The obstacles seem a little out of proportion with the objective here.

[Gentlefish]

Dam that does sound like the dream

[Yoink]

My mind is like your typical cyberpunk city, with flying cars speeding past every which-way, towering buildings reminding one of their ultimate insignificance and a profusion of neon signs and high-tech billboards looming everywhere you look, except each and every one of these signs is advertising a different failure or failing of mine and the countless cars scream abuse at me as they pass.
The only option is to keep my eyes on the ground as I trudge along, keeping myself distracted and occupied as much as humanly possible.

In other news, this family visit is dragging on because the idea of asserting myself and arranging a flight back is too daunting, and I feel as though the visit itself is probably taking a toll on my mental health.
Although, doesn't pretty much everything? I dunno.

[Kagus]

Woke up with somewhat-painfully-impacted earwax in my left ear. I tried to loosen things up with some warm water, now it's impacted and waterlogged.

Also I have a cold.