I really, really don't understand faith at all. I'm not proud of that or phrasing it as an attack, in fact I'm kinda ashamed? Considering how much time I've spent in arguments with Christians both online and in person. I just... don't... understand.
In high school I spent a week at a Christian (Baptist) camp and tried talking to God. Begging to become a Christian. At the time I desperately wanted something divine to believe in and... Well, to believe that there was some grand cosmic plan where everything was okay. I sat outside under the stars and just begged. I wasn't angry afterwards, just disappointed and numb.
That was a pretty dark time for me. I had been reading the Bible a lot, and knew what Jehovah is said to have done. I was essentially willing to pledge to a Mythos beast.
Nowadays I say I believe in fairies, or "little people". I actually do mean that. I want them to exist, I think it's possible, and it would explain things more than it raised questions (since they have superpowers and hide from scrutiny). Is that belief? Do I have faith? I don't know if that's what the words mean.
What IS faith?
Is it "Acting like a thing is true without solid evidence"? Because that's how I feel about the fey, sure. But I can't imagine being *evangelical* about something if I can't provide evidence. It's one thing to act like something is true, it's another to *tell* people it's true with any certainty.
I guess probably most religious people feel some personal, unshareable evidence. Not literally "talking to God" necessarily, but a feeling that a divine spirit is confirming their belief as true.
If that's true, I definitely believe in the Fey. (Not that I would serve them, but they don't demand service. And most of them are fucking terrifying aliens, nearly as bad as Jehovah)