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[kaijyuu]

I'm attempting to work on something that should take an hour. It's currently 12:45 PM.


I expect to finish somewhere around 2 AM.


ADHD is wonderful. By which I mean fucking horrible.

10 PM now. About 40% finished.

Panic is a good motivator, by the way.

[nettobr]

Sometimes I hear stuff coming from the inside of my head, especially when in the middle of a crowd.Luckily its really rare and dont affect anything in my life, its just weird.

[Frumple]

... strangest thing buggered up about m'self is the phobia of boats, I think. No problem with water, mind. Love swimming, though it's been a while, and flying over it is fine. It's specifically boats. Ruddy childhood trauma.

Other than that, it's the relatively normal stuff. Mild paranoiac -- though I'd half-heartedly argue it's not paranoia when you are, in fact, surrounded by bigots, of which a minority actually are willing to turn violent when encountering a non-bigot -- and prooobably a genetic depressive (thanks, parents!) if the eternal exhaustion and related symptoms have been anything to go by. Don't get out much barring school/work/etc., but I think that's less some sort of neurological dysfunction than it is just not being interested in much that a computer+internet can't offer *shrugs vaguely*

[kaijyuu]

I'm attempting to work on something that should take an hour. It's currently 12:45 PM.


I expect to finish somewhere around 2 AM.


ADHD is wonderful. By which I mean fucking horrible.

10 PM now. About 40% finished.

Panic is a good motivator, by the way.

Finished. Hour and a half early, woo!

Now to get not nearly enough sleep so I can give a speech at 8 AM tomorrow.

[MetalSlimeHunt]

I strongly suspect I have nightmare disorder, but since I have exactly zero desire to have contact with the mental health system that's never going to be confirmed or denied officially. It's horrific, though. Good nights are weird or mildly disconcerting. Bad nights just leave me contemplating it all day afterwards, and usually involve splitting, long-lasting headaches that don't seem to respond to painkillers (before you go shouting about brain tumors, this paradigm has existed my entire life). Most are just kind of startling, fortunately. How bad it is tends to correlate directly with how much stress I'm under. If I'm sick, the resultant fever dreams are full-blown chaos. I have what you would describe as a good dream maybe once every couple of months. I never really understood why people would say they liked sleeping and dreaming, I just figured this sort of thing was normal until about four years ago.

[Remuthra]

I strongly suspect I have nightmare disorder, but since I have exactly zero desire to have contact with the mental health system that's never going to be confirmed or denied officially. It's horrific, though. Good nights are weird or mildly disconcerting. Bad nights just leave me contemplating it all day afterwards, and usually involve splitting, long-lasting headaches that don't seem to respond to painkillers (before you go shouting about brain tumors, this paradigm has existed my entire life). Most are just kind of startling, fortunately. How bad it is tends to correlate directly with how much stress I'm under. If I'm sick, the resultant fever dreams are full-blown chaos. I have what you would describe as a good dream maybe once every couple of months. I never really understood why people would say they liked sleeping and dreaming, I just figured this sort of thing was normal until about four years ago.

You should try not having dreams sometime.

[martinuzz]

I strongly suspect I have nightmare disorder, but since I have exactly zero desire to have contact with the mental health system that's never going to be confirmed or denied officially. It's horrific, though. Good nights are weird or mildly disconcerting. Bad nights just leave me contemplating it all day afterwards, and usually involve splitting, long-lasting headaches that don't seem to respond to painkillers (before you go shouting about brain tumors, this paradigm has existed my entire life). Most are just kind of startling, fortunately. How bad it is tends to correlate directly with how much stress I'm under. If I'm sick, the resultant fever dreams are full-blown chaos. I have what you would describe as a good dream maybe once every couple of months. I never really understood why people would say they liked sleeping and dreaming, I just figured this sort of thing was normal until about four years ago.

One of the side effects of marijuana is that it greatly reduces the amount of dreams you remember just after waking up. So it actually seems like you dream less / less intense. Not sure if that would help your predicament or not.
Now I'm not saying you should hook up on pot, but it can't really hurt to try. Unless you are in a country were you get exectuted for trying some pot. Wouldn't recommend using it under age 18 either.
Depending on which country you live in, you could ask your doctor about it.

[Orange Wizard]

I strongly suspect I have nightmare disorder, but since I have exactly zero desire to have contact with the mental health system that's never going to be confirmed or denied officially. It's horrific, though. Good nights are weird or mildly disconcerting. Bad nights just leave me contemplating it all day afterwards, and usually involve splitting, long-lasting headaches that don't seem to respond to painkillers (before you go shouting about brain tumors, this paradigm has existed my entire life). Most are just kind of startling, fortunately. How bad it is tends to correlate directly with how much stress I'm under. If I'm sick, the resultant fever dreams are full-blown chaos. I have what you would describe as a good dream maybe once every couple of months. I never really understood why people would say they liked sleeping and dreaming, I just figured this sort of thing was normal until about four years ago.

One of the side effects of marijuana is that it greatly reduces the amount of dreams you remember just after waking up. So it actually seems like you dream less / less intense. Not sure if that would help your predicament or not.
Now I'm not saying you should hook up on pot, but it can't really hurt to try. Unless you are in a country were you get exectuted for trying some pot. Wouldn't recommend using it under age 18 either.
Depending on which country you live in, you could ask your doctor about it.

In most countries I've heard of, that would be illegal. You usually won't get executed, but fines and gaol time are fairly standard. I wouldn't recommend it.
That said, I am heavily opposed to any kind of mind-altering drug - legal or no, so my view is probably biased.

[kaijyuu]

Being opposed to any mind altering drug for medical purposes is a bit like being opposed to crutches and wheelchairs.

I'm certain if that crippled person tried really hard they'd be able to walk again.

[Orange Wizard]

Being opposed to any mind altering drug for medical purposes is a bit like being opposed to crutches and wheelchairs.

I'm certain if that crippled person tried really hard they'd be able to walk again.

That's one way of putting it

Yeah, I guess it is kind of silly. It's not a thing where I would go out and yell at doctors because they've offended my sensibilities. In fact, I hardly ever mention it at all. So the viewpoint just sits at the back of my mind gathering dust.

[kaijyuu]

Fair 'nough

[Xantalos]

Being opposed to any mind altering drug for medical purposes is a bit like being opposed to crutches and wheelchairs.

I'm certain if that crippled person tried really hard they'd be able to walk again.

Real man rebuild own spinal cord using RED MEAT and OWN FINGERNAILS.
<- internet sarcasm face


I dunno if this is an actual disorder or anything like that (doubt it) but I suck at social contact. I have about no friends I communicate with outside of school/work anymore, and I don't leave my house except for those two functions. Occasionally I get faint pangs of discomfort from this situation, but since I don't really feel emotions unless I'm interacting with people in person, I'm kinda forgetting how to.
My younger self probably wouldn't like my situation.

[Orange Wizard]

I have [...] no friends

I'm in roughly the same situation. Having left school and studying from home doesn't help, I'd wager. Except for me it's more along the lines of purposefully separating social ties. And I'm not really sure why I want to do that.

[Vattic]

I forgot to mention my two other mental things. I get semi-regular sleep paralysis with horrifying hallucinations. As unpleasant as they are they don't impact my mood once over. The only concern is that it could get worse, but it's a result of me working nights so there's not much I can do about it. I also have a mild phobia of earwigs which I seem to have inherited from my mum. I force myself to handle them and I'm a lot less sensitive now.

[Tack]

My younger self probably wouldn't like my situation.

Empathy.
I actually remember saying a a younger me, that if I were ever in the situation I was in late last year, I'd kill myself.

Me at the time had zero suicidal thoughts, because I guess the spiral is subtle, but I think if they were both in the same place, young-me would've had a serious go at killing me.
Young me was quite black-and-white