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[PkGamer]

Disclaimer: May give you mental scars...
I just feel miserable .I realised life doesn't make sense.Its like an impossible game.A road with no end, full of things that make you miserable and enemy's that pretend to be friends.Backstabbers, pain, and other things with no escape to safety.And this road you have travel alone.And then someone may join along but then leave you when needed most.You then miss this person, but that was 2 months ago.Other times there are people you love but don't have the possibility to ask.And other times your just too scared.Then there are b*st*rds and retards you hate but still stick with.And then there are friends who seem to enjoy making your life unbearable. Sometimes I think about the easy way off this road.But stop and keep thinking about the future.But the road seems to get only worse and worse.And these things ruin my life.But who cares?No one since I keep this all inside.Only I know.A reason for my emptiness and distrust to many people.And always the thought of resorting to death.But I stand strong hoping for change in this road.And the world keeps eroding at this feeling which I keep inside.

There,
My life problems,
 All of them...
Haters gotta hate so I'm gonna hate them back.
No I'm not getting a therapist.

[Lectorog]

All of this is normal. You're not alone.

They say it gets better, so it probably does.

[LordSlowpoke]

i'm actually glad you're able to open up to this board like that. means that there's some trust/hope for humanity left in you.

shit, don't get a therapist if you don't want to. being forced to get one is the worst thing. you end up telling them bullshit just so they classify you as a "functioning member of society" and let you go (or go off the other end and work your way towards prescription drugs. always another way, i guess.)

so, yeah. people suck. shit, the sooner you realize this one the sooner you'll get used to it and maybe, just maybe turn out to be one of the rare people in the world who instead of focusing on the bad side of it think of all the good things that happened to them! don't be too hard on yourself if you don't though, the "let's remember the bad shit so we can avoid it later" kind of thought is one of the reasons why we learn anything at all during our time here

and unless you turn into a hermit other people are going to be a significant part of your life so if i were you i'd be looking for someone here who knows meatspace fairly well and can give you some guidance regarding surrounding yourself with the less sucky part of humanity, as there are various shades of gray in here

[acetech09]

But who cares?No one

I do. And I think I can speak for the whole board when I say that we all do. I have no goddamn idea who you are but it doesn't matter. You're alive, talking, and have problems. That's enough basis for me to want to do whatever I can to help.

But I stand strong hoping for change in this road.

You're doing the right thing. Don't just be passively strong, though. Don't just endure the slings and arrows... try what you can to actually make your life better.



And, I think you could benefit from gaining the "Doesn't really care about anything anymore" tag*. Some of the things you complained about seem to be effecting you greatly, but it also seems like it's your choice that it effects you.

Sometimes you just gotta throw everything into the wind and realize that life, in its most basic form, doesn't suck. Ever read Into the Wild? I'm not suggesting you go do that, but it's definitely a good (and short) read that shows the power of one's mind to make the best of their surroundings.

*I'm assuming you've played DF to know what that means, otherwise the context should explain itself.


And if you ever think death is the only way out, it isn't. Don't even think about it. Just no. You would regret it in 50 years.

[Lectorog]

And, I think you could benefit from gaining the "Doesn't really care about anything anymore" tag*.

plz no. Total apathy and lack of feeling is not a good thing.
Learn to accept and deal with things, sure. But don't shut yourself off to feelings.

And if you ever think death is the only way out, it isn't. Don't even think about it. Just no. You would regret it in 50 years.

I'm certainly not saying dying is a good thing. But I must say. It seems hard to regret dying. As it's hard to regret things when you're dead.

[PkGamer]

Heh...might put that in my sig. Well feeling a bit better :/

[Lectorog]

Simple venting often helps. I think that's the main reason why the sad thread exists - just so people have somewhere to vent sadness where others might read it, and possibly respond.

[Draignean]

As Lectorog said, this is a normal part of growing up.

However, you're missing a few points. By thermodynamics and irreversible entropy, the universe will eventually reach a state wherein in no new reactions can take place. This means that, no matter what you do in life, however spectacular it may be. Everything will end, the human race will die, and that trite "a smile can change the world" saying will look rather silly. You are not even a grain of sand on a beach, you're a quark in a star, nearly every one of your properties determined by location and random chance.

Tl;dr: Entropy makes your life about as hopeful as a kitten with metastasized brain cancer.


So, what does this mean for you? Not a damn thing.

There are beautiful things to see, puppies to hug, cat videos to watch, things to learn, strange dishes to eat, cool games to play, etc, etc. None of this particularly cares whether you are happy or not. It's just there.

Life isn't cruel and shitty, it just doesn't care. Snow is not cruel because it falls, it isn't happy, it isn't sad, it isn't anything, it's just snow. Understand that life doesn't care about you, and you're a giant step forward in being happy. If you can understand that life isn't personally being mean to you, then you can start to do a lot of things. When it rained, our greatfathers didn't bemoan the world for being cruel, they hid in caves. Actually, I don't know if all of our ancestors were that stoic, some of them might have spent their lives wailing at the raining sky, and subsequently ended their lives like stereotypical turkey's, but I really don't know about that. 

Life is hard, life is uncaring, life spends a great deal of time making you want to curl up in a ball and die, however, it is also the only chance for fun that you will literally ever have. (For certain, anyway. If you've got a green card for one of the theological paradises, good for you.)

Everybody copes in their own way. For me, it's sarcasm. For others, it's faith, or making other people's lives less miserable, or making a ton of money, or any of the bazillion mechanisms that justifies existence.

Anyway, short version: Life isn't out to get you, it just doesn't care whether it accidentally crushes you. Everybody feels like this occasionally, and we all cope differently. If there's a way for you to laugh, take it. Dark laughter is better than no laughter. Life is pain, to quote an excellent movie line, but it's also pleasure. It is the source of both.

[Lectorog]

@Draignean: What you want to get from life is up to your personal philosophy. Some people want to make a difference just so the next generation can have slightly better lives. In the end, of course, it's all about personal pleasure; it may not be that direct for all people though.

[acetech09]

And, I think you could benefit from gaining the "Doesn't really care about anything anymore" tag*.

plz no. Total apathy and lack of feeling is not a good thing.
Learn to accept and deal with things, sure. But don't shut yourself off to feelings.

And if you ever think death is the only way out, it isn't. Don't even think about it. Just no. You would regret it in 50 years.

I'm certainly not saying dying is a good thing. But I must say. It seems hard to regret dying. As it's hard to regret things when you're dead.

1) See: PM. Don't want to turn this thread into a psych discussion.

2) And yes, that was the point. It was an attempt at levity.

[Sinlessmoon]

Trust me, It definitely gets better. I've been there, I had this one friend... Well, long story short we wasn't the nicest guy. Everyone's been there, you've just gotta find the strength to pull through and follow the road, you will find that it widens into more possibilities, more adventures. Yes there will be people along the way that make travelling that road miserable, but they usually don't stick around for very long.

If you have friends that bug you, slowly pull away from them. If they make your life miserable, then they aren't really your friends then are they?

Hope your life gets better.

[Lectorog]

If you have friends that bug you, slowly pull away from them. If they make your life miserable, then they aren't really your friends then are they?

I can vouch for this. I've been noticeably less unhappy since breaking off communication with my most hated friend.

[PkGamer]

Well to tell you where my problems come from I must first tell you about my gf from 2 months ago.
I was a year younger and had recently discovered a chatroom called TheLobby.It was great.I was either in the teen room or the dirty room(which infact isn't dirty most of the time).And all of this is just great.But one evening I'm bored.Very bored.So I go into kik room and get some kik usernames.I wasn't aiming at a relationship at first really.Just wanted to chat.So this girl is one the people I met.She was kinda emo but really nice and we really bonded.She thought she was ugly but she was perfect.Even in flash.She could have been a model.And because of this she literally begged me to be her bf.She said stuff that she would cut herself.Well I was going to meet her again so I'm like this is great!It's a shortcut!
It was more of a trap since she was clearly desperate and had problems.But with all my lust I didn't notice it at that time.So we do stuff roleplay and pics etc.The worest thing is that I got really attached to her and she did to me.It only lasted like a month but she was like my soulmate and sister or my best pal.
And now, even after 2 months I miss her.The funny thing is that I don't know who dumped who andearlier this week I messaged her and she still calls me babe.I think in the end we never really split up and are in a certain way together.

Now this may seem great but now the conclusion to this.

I still miss her.Badly.I got a new gf very recently and at the back of my head its my old gf.And now this sucks.Before I had that girlfriend I was carefree and all happy, letting life rush past me.But because I still miss her I feel an emptiness inside.She was like my soulmate.And this blackhole just sucks all my emotions in.And nothing can fill this emptiness.And we aren't together but are together in a cert sense sucks.I remember I told her I cant be seeing her blahblabla but it doesn't seem I dumped her properly and a part of me thinks shes my gf....

With my friends its really ironic how our friendship works.We all just slag each other.Heh recently I found this song.Its some techno and a guy with a Russian accent sings it.Its like "f*ck you, im gonna f*u-u-u-uck you".And because my friend has anger problems and used to live in the country and also a Russian Accent I say "Imagine him going on a rampage on a tractor singing that song while moving his head like if he was deep throating someone".....Yeah so no support from friends and for friends...


So now you know a bit more about my problem...I take the 'Don't worry about a thing...' approach in life.Doing assignments at latest moments.Learning stuff 30 mins before exams.And it works I dont know how.I get As!

So thats kinda more info on my problem.

[Lectorog]

I'm sure someone better than myself at it is going to show up and decide whether you should completely drop the old girl or not.
I can tell you that when relationships do completely end, it takes time to get over. Don't think it won't get better - it will.

Doing assignments at latest moments.Learning stuff 30 mins before exams.And it works I dont know how.I get As!

This is just high school. It kills you when you get to college/university.
Being able to accept things as they come without stressing too much is useful.
But I do recommend learning how to really apply yourself before you move on to "higher education" or employment. Find something that interests you and fully apply yourself, so you know how to fully apply yourself in the situations you don't want to.

[nekoexmachina]

I did not read the replies (yet), hope u'r a computer person and love 8bit.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u7Dg3LrhmIY
I feel that from time to time.


[edit]
or more like same group, 'game over'

And nothing can fill this emptiness.

From (little) experience: don't use drugs (psychoactive stuff or marijuanna) to fill that emptiness, that gives more problems than solutions.