<It didn't used to be!>
I resend him my memories of my friends from home.
<I don't want to hurt others!>
I send him my memories of my first host's death, and what I went through to bring her back.
<You tricked me! You're hurting me! You're threatening all of us! I thought you wanted companions!>
I send him what it felt like when he was killing me before, and just now when he was doing it again.
<I trusted you!>
I send him my memory of lying down beside him, confessing my fears and telling him more about me than anyone but Stellar had been privlaged to know, and how it felt with him being there, so much bigger and older than me, listening patiently without judgement.
<You said before, when you tried to hurt my friend River, that if I thought I had no choice, that I could tell them what we saw!>
I send him my memory of when he said exactly that, back in the tower.
<You didn't even remember it! I think it's really, really important, and that it probably means that this entire mission is a trap, but you didn't even remember it!>
I send him my memory of just moments ago, when he said that he no secrets from us.
<I'm trying to protect OUR companions! I might be doing it the wrong way but that's because I don't understand what's going on and you won't tell any of us!>
I send him my memory of back at the relay, when I saw him touch the rods and begin to burn himself, and then stepping up to do what I could to help, despite how nervous he made me.
<I want to protect you River.>
I send him my memory of playing tag with him.
<I want to be your friend.>
I send him my memory of showing Theri how the staging area works, and rescuing Ike from the wraith, and burning the parasites off our companions.
<I thought that we were going to look out for each other.>
I send him my memory of him asking us to be his companions.
<Was being your companion nothing but a lie?>
((note: I have more, but since it involves a shift in tone I'd like to hear River's response to this part. however with the pressure I'm under, if he takes signifigant time or doesn't lift off the pressure, then I'm probably going to interrupt him.))
I will NOT quietly go into the dark. I continue to reinforce my self of self, and to shove River's presence away from me.