Right, so how do you guys reconcile the person you are with the person wish you were?
I work on becoming that person. Or I accept who I am. But usually I do the work thing. But often I accept it. Those really are the only two choices, and as you get older you'll see that being in the middle and frustrated isn't worth the effort.
In a similar fashion to another thread, I always seem to think about all the shit i've missed in my life. Sometimes it's so bad I can't look at myself in the mirror.
All the shit you've missed in all 18 years of your childhood and adolescence, eh? Kids don't typically "miss" anything because they don't "do" anything because they aren't adults and don't have "lives" that are worth noting. And you're going to college, so whatever "fun" you've missed out on you have like 100x the opportunity to do that soon.
Other times I look at myself and say "Hey, your pretty cool", but it always seems to return to dwelling on my boring and wasted past.
Name three 18-year-olds with interesting pasts. If you can, your definition of "interesting" is probably very different from someone who has made it through their teens. Point: everyone your age has lived mostly boring lives, just some of them think their lives were actually interesting.
Not being cool isn't the curse it sounds like. You get older, you realize that being yourself is more important than living up to external social standards (that shift based on your subculture and circles).
It's not sadness, it's a terrible feeling of disappointment that makes me feel physically bad whenever I remeber it's there.
Eh, stop thinking about it. Look, if you're not going to do anything about it, then ignore it (accept it, move on). If you ARE going to do something about it, then start doing it.
Of course these days its not as bad because im really busy at school and trying my best to stay chipper and focused at least until my college apps go out, but something inside always reminds me that the life I lead might only be the 2nd best one I could have had.
Yeah, college is where you're going to determine the course of your life more than anything, so maybe just start thinking about what you want to do and choose accordingly. You have like your whole life ahead of you if I've gauged your age correctly.
I love art, and music, and I'd like to live an adventurous life, but my experiences, personailty, and dreams just don't seem to match up.
Well, this certainly is vague. Let me give you some vague advice: choose what's best. Or, here, take a trip to [insert Latin American 3rd world country] for 4 weeks and do a live-in with a local family. Tada! You're "interesting"
and probably won't complain so much again. (this literally costs like $500, so unless you have a really important thing to do over winter break, well... just remember to take your malarials) (workaway.info - country - any - "family")
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