<You don't quite seem to understand. For my entire life, my father has refered to me as something that is broken and needs to be fixed. I've spent most of my existance trying to impress him, but he is showing less interest in me than he shows interest in adult entertainment. Out of all people I know, he is the one whose appreciation and acknowledgement means the most to me - but he is too obsessed with drowning in self destructive behaviour and self-pity and self-hatred to even notice. I've tried so hard to look up to him, and to learn from him, because he is my family. But I can't. How could I look up to him? He is the least dependable person I know. I've read so many stories about the things a father would do for his daughter - and the realisation that I can never expect Kyle to ever act like one has filled me with more desperation and loneliness than I have ever felt before. He deserves every bit of criticism that I gave him, and should think about them hard. Telling him that everything is alright and that "ICARUS is just a robot, what does she know?" is not going to help him one bit - it will only reinforce negative behaviours. Him leaving me without any guidance that I can turn to leaves me alone in a world that I don't belong to and that I barely understand, and that scares me. All I know is something he tought me without even wanting to - that I do not want to be like him. I will carve my own way and become a dependable, optimistic person, who will never let down those I care for or who care for me. Even if that means that I had to bomb my way through Riyadh to get you to safety, or confront Kyle directly and harshly. I will become someone people can look up to and rely on.>
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Topic: Rise of the Magic Girls v2 IC Thread: Antimagic and gods and souls oh my (Read 3122672 times)