Victoria slowly curls around Selina's body, trying to block off view from anyone who might accidentally enter.
[100] She sends Selina what is more or less the mental equivalent of a .pdf file. It basically amounts to a massive apology. For basically, everything. As in everything from the general stuff such as existing to the specifics such as, ironically, apologizing too much. It had rather detailed and in some cases, sophisticated, explanations of how much, well, 'how much she hates herself' would be a good phrase. If it wasn't for the fact that there wasn't much self loathing in it at all, it was more of a passive acceptance than anything else, admittedly. In fact, it was surprisingly chipper even when it made the occasional detour into solipsistic pondering about whether or not she was insane and the repeated offers to commit suicide or other acts of self-harm as penance for increasingly minor infractions. It becomes readily apparent that Victoria is completely broken inside. If it wasn't for the fact that the term 'broken' implies a regression from a prior state. It seems that when she manifested and became sentient, she really didn't really care about establishing any sense of self-esteem and is pretty much apathetic to that concept currently as well. Overall the whole composition was somewhat jarring, not only because of how cheerful she sounded when informing Selina that she'd happily end her own existence in the most agonizing way possible if she asked her to, but also because while the document displayed a diverse, byzantine vocabulary, it was also capriciously littered with cute emoticons and encoded to reflect it's creator's sanguine mood. Well... at least it was really vague when discussing the more self-destructive actions.
((What the fuck did I just write? In hindsight I could've just summed it up in a sentence or two.))
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