I didn't expect Undertale. Bullethell and JRPG? Aggressive recommendations making my hipster senses tingle? Appealing to fans of a genre I never really liked? I understand this could be good, but I'm not the right customer. The Something Awful Let's Play Archive has an LP of it, I'll just read it so people stop bothering me.
So I got to the fight. You know the one. I stopped.
The feeling I got, staring at my computer screen, was like the time a character begged for me to help him before he went insane.
The game was called
Knock-Knock. It was a horror game. Your character, the Lodger, starts out mad and doesn't get much better from there. By the end, if you don't do the right things, you get stuck. The level starts with you in his house, and you have to leave the house to get to the next. But I did the wrong things. When he left, I got a game over. The game over is that he goes completely mad; catatonically so.
Around the second time of doing this, he began speaking to me. Not unusual, he often rambles to you throughout the game. But the things he was saying...
"You! You, outside! Who are you?"
"What do you want from me?"
"Help me."And I knew. Even though he was just a collection of code and art assets and letters forming sentences... It made the perfect image of a man both wracked by extreme paranoia and tortured by the knowledge that he was about to die, knowing the only one who could save him... Simply can't. And the feeling washed over me; that feeling that has no name yet.
So I started a new game. Got the good ending. He got out of his house, out into the daylight. And I was both impressed and frightened by that feeling and hoped I would never get it again.
I did, in the most unlikely of places. Undertale... It's not the first time I've been changed by a Let's Play. Hell no. For some reason, the Let's Play of Cry of Fear on the LParchive still induces a melancholy mood to this day. But Undertale made me want to stop reading an LP simply because it was too horrible to continue.
Maybe this is all bullshit. Maybe it caught me in a bad mood: I have been feeling down recently. But... I know there's going to be more games like Undertale. I hope there are.
I'm sad, yes. Sad and guilty for the lives of fictional characters, how ridiculous. But isn't it amazing that the human race can make you feel emotions like that, really true emotions, just with illusions?