((Summary: George has recorded Selina/Maria for 'personal' use. Matt eventually makes him delete it. We discover Matt and Gintama are not separate entities. Matt IS Gintama, the latter merely being an outlet for all the anger and mistreatment he's ever held back. We also see why Matt got so angry when Maria and Selina kissed him.))
The sound of a cup being placed on a wooden table brought Matt out of his internal trance, noticing that was it a cup of soup.
''You're keen to get as much energy in me as possible...''
''You DID die, old chap! Need as much energy as we can put back into you.'' George looked as cheery as usual, though Matt noted a red tinge to the man.
''What have you been doing?''
''Gathering blackmail material.'' He responded, nonchalantly.
''... What?'' Matt was curious now.
''Well, less blackmail material, more personal material.'' He smiled wider.
''What exactly are you talking about?'' That smile went wider still, the moustache almost flipped upside down.
''Mwahaha! Just a little recording I pulled.'' Matt decided to let it go. George sat down as the young man sipped. ''I guess I should start explaining a few things instead of being asked, eh?''
''That'd be nice...'' Matt said, passingly. He was emotionally drained from earlier. ''Before that, though, I need the toilet.''
''Oh right. The loo's just over there.'' George pointed in the direction.
''Cool... uhm... could I get like... proper food?''
''Oh, wot wot! I shall make a proper meal for my soup special is not enough!'' George stormed, not without humour, as Matt smiled and got up. Just as he was about to head to the toilet, he suddenly dashed to the room next door, where George had come from in the first place. A cry of surprise, and George was also running shouting 'stop'.
In the room, Matt saw a clear as day portal of sight, paused on Maria and Selina's little escapade on the bed. George came in puffing.
''Personal material?'' Matt was a little miffed.
''I get lonely here!'' George defended.
''My girlfriends are being looked on by an old perverted man! Fantastic!'' Matt put his hands in the air, blushing though he was.
''Wanna see the whole thing?'' George offered, mischeviously.
''What? NO!''
''Oh, come on, you'll be seeing it eventually!'' George argued.
''No, I wouldn't. Th-th-that kind of thing i-isn't something... eh... No I wouldn't!''
''I don't see why not I mean...'' Matt cut in.
''Look, even if I did, that'd just suck. They'd be doing it and I'm on the side... again.''
''Ya think so? What's even so bad about that anyway?''
''Ugh, everyone always thinks lesbians are the best... it only works in porn. Reality is, the guy's left out.''
''Almost sound experienced there.'' George mentioned.
''Uhh...'' Matt looked bashful. ''I uhh... get... lonely...'' Matt slowly realised what he said. After a second of eye contact, both of them laughed. ''Well, ok, fine, there's a lot I don't know on how my relationship will work with them. I just... know that I want to be the protector.''
George took a few seconds before slapping Matt heartily on the back, with a laugh to go with it. ''Spoken like a true Robson son! But can you do that?'' George looked closely into Matts eyes. Matt was taken aback by the question.
''What do you mean?''
''As you are, can you do that?'' This was quite a serious George speaking, and experienced. He had done this before, after all.
''Well... I... don't really... believe in myself. It helps me from overreaching myself, to prevent me from trying to... to reach for heights I can't reach.''
''Well, you got friends now to help you. You got 2 girls that mean the world to you. What will it be?'' Matt was confused, and fell back to an answer he more readily enjoyed going for.
''Doesn't help I have Gintama.''
George took a step back, and sat down. ''Hmm... you... yeah... you have done that, haven't you...'' Matt was confused now.
''I've... what?''
''You think Gintama is a different person to you.''
''I-isn't he?'' Matt was stunned.
''Nope.''
''But, he's nothing like me! I don't even remember everything that happens, i-i-i-it's impossible!'' Matt was panicking, the idea of him being that arrogant person scared him.
''Oh really? Tell me, what do you do, or what are you like when you are angry?'' Matt took a second to ensure he answered truthfully.
''Like an idiot, hurtful, thoughtless, selfish...'' He was remembering how he treated Maria and Selina when they kissed him.
''And now name Gintama's traits.''
''A hurtful thoughtless arrogant idiot who think he's the whole... world...'' Matt slowed as he realised what he was saying. George smiled knowingly.
''I mentioned it was unfortunate you were so young when I opened up your powers. It is because it can be hard to deal with them at your age. You deal with a lot of anger, swallow a lot of what you want to say, put aside your personal desires for others. You always have. The anger is built up somewhere with nowhere for it to go. Instead, it manifests when you are Gintama, when your brain is not as effective. You let out the pressure with storms and drunken games before turning back into Matt who overthinks things all the time.''
Matt hung his head. It made sense, he was right. It was just painful to deal with it.
''You've always tried to make yourself the 'perfect' human to make friends and get on with life, and not allowed to express yourself. However, the point of being a man from a boy is to know who you are. Who are you Matt Robson?''
Matt couldn't answer, but he realised why he always felt unworthy of Maria and Selina... he wasn't a man.
George let it sink for a bit. ''You will have an answer, don't worry. Now, let's get so-''
''I wanted intimacy!'' Matt spoke, as if by realisation. George stopped, waiting for Matt to continue. ''When Maria and Selina came and kissed me... it felt casual... or... impersonal. I... I always wanted... a close companionship with that special someone. That's why I got angry!'' He was having a self-revelation. ''And that's why... I loved that moment. That moment with Maria... as I held her... I just... wanted to be there forever... And that's what I want with Selina too...''
George settled. The first step was taken. Matt was finally looking into himself to see what he wanted. Matt looked shocked by energised.
''You think they'd want that?'' George asked a testing question.
''Well...'' George could almost see the lightbulb on Matt's head. ''Maybe they will, maybe they won't. But I feel that it's right for me. If they don't see it that way then... then it's not fair for any of us.''
<Bright kid. He's working in steps of 3. It's like I opened a floodgate.>
They settled down, Matt somewhat still in his stupor till George played the portal again.
''Hadududu! DELETE THAT!''
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