Merlin stares at Johnny during his explanation. He sighs heavily, looks down into his lap, and the shadows recede. The blinds open again, letting in natural sunlight.
I was never going to kill you. I don't know what kind of people you've met that you expect it of anyone, truth be told. I should probably not be surprised given this city, though.
He looks up at Johnny, his eyes tired but with a slight inner fire in them.
But it's a mistake to just give up. To say 'who cares'. That's not how things get better. And trust me, if no one does anything it's going to get much worse. Not just whatever R might do - he won't be the only one out there, and likely not the most malavolent. But I don't know for sure. Now that he's killed, he might do it again. Might claim kingship over the city, wouldn't be the first magical tyrant around. He might curse the police force to become monsters, another might burn down city hall, any number of awful things might happen to any number of people in this city, but if no one does anything it can never get better.
He gets up sometime during this speech and starts pacing around, gesturing animatedly, but he stops and looks directly at Johnny again.
I'm not going to ask you to become directly involved in whatever's going to happen in the next few months on my behalf; you've been taken advantage of too much already by whoever your former benefactor was. He may have given you that coat, those gloves, and the nonvisible gift that goes with them, but involving you in murder was too much. I'm just asking for you to answer a few questions.
And if none of that persuaded you ... you likely have people you know, perhaps even like in this city. Your wife might still live here, whatever friends you made on the streets. If this city falls to Magicsl chaos or whatever else, they could get hurt or worse. I know the amount of damage one rogue wizard can do if their mind is put to it. I'd like no one to die due to us; you could help me with that.
He sits back down rather heavily. He pulls two teacups out of his sleeves in a magician-like fashion, snaps his fingers, and they're filled with tea.
Even if you just want to go, please have a drink of tea before you go. It's cold outside and this will keep you warm.