So cause I'm tired of it, and if I dont have one thread for it then its going to go evrey where
lets start with my back story
From a young age I had talking, writing, and reading problems (the reading problems where not "problems per say")
I had a speech impediment, bad hand writing, etc. Basically English is the worse possible subject for me with the exception of Gym.
So during kinder through third grade is where I think it all stared, due to my bad hand writing, I believe the term is chicken scratch. My hand writing was unreadable, even I after a while could not read it, and so the teach just gave me a passing grade. Speech? I could not say blue in Spanish as it sound like ass hole, went to the principals office like eight times for that, now I naturals dont say blue in Spanish, as well as pick "easy" words to say\spell when I can.
Now to reading, I'm a good reader in the sense I read the thing and I get ithow ever two too and to can be in the wrong place, and I'll still read it right
So say there where to cats, my brain will read that as two and see nothing wrong with it, I guess the best thing is I'm good at context.... I think it drove my teachers nuts
Well anyways through those years it was hard to understand, and as a kinder and 1st was to emberesed(I've tried four times here to spell it right and spell check still wont give me anything close to it....)
ask for help after all every one says your native tongue is easy, and every one else seemed to have no problems with it, in 2nd grade I asked for help went through summer school form then in till well, the end of school.
Hours where spent at the kitchen table, sometimes falling asleep sometimes hearing my parents tell me the bus will be out side soon
And here I am twenty odd years later, still like this, after a total of 14 years (was held back in K once because of my English skills) in public school, and many many countless hours of trying I'm still here, same way I was, I wont say I've NEVER improved, I learned new words, but even they where often slept wrong, but my problem is that even with all I learned spelling, grammar, English in general might as well be advanced math for an advanced civlazation(another couple treys cant find how to spell it right)
I've tried the "school way" and it dont seem to work, it did not then, its not working in college, what more can I do? how much of my life am I going have to give to this?