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[kaijyuu]

Well, there's a 0.1% that will hate you forever but they're assholes.

[Zrk2]

Whatever you did, 90% of us will forget it in two weeks and the other 10% probably won't treat you differently if you just never bring it up again. Welcome to the internet!

Well, there's a 0.1% that will hate you forever but they're assholes.

I won't hate you forever, and I think I have resident asshole more or less cornered.

[SalmonGod]

It's rare to see threads like this.  They make me hopeful. 

I applaud your courage, DrPoo.  Like others, I don't specifically recall any bigotry or otherwise horrible behavior from you.  Regardless, honesty in moving forward and growing up is all that can be asked of anyone, and anyone who puts effort towards doing so deserves respect for it.

[Glowcat]

Anyone who continues to hate you for things you've sincerely apologized for is being a jerk-face. Personally I can't even remember anything you've done which is bad. I do notice that you tend to be extremely hard on yourself though.

As for contacting somebody to help about suicide.. that might be a good idea, especially if you've actually attempted it. I tend to get past suicidal phases by reminding myself that I'm in a state of irrationality and by doing a lot of crying in bed until the emotional wave is over.

[miauw62]

You're an awesome guy Poo, dont go D:

[DrPoo]

Just wanted to say it. Ive been on the net since i was a lil 4 year old chap, browsing my moms website, still as 90s as it was back then. Pretty much know how it works, but for me B12 is different, like a big family of really awesome uncles and nephews and the occasional asshole but still loveable cousin. Ive been depressed and periodically suicidal since i dont even know, i guess it culminated when my girlfriend went psychotic and tried to kill someone. Damn she was a wicked one, but i saw something beutiful and loveable inside her, behind all the insanity. Something that was hurt in her once, and she tried to hide it so no one would hurt it again. And she had confidence inme and showed me but then her paranoia got her and i dont know. It hurt so hard, she got raped and murdered on a mental asylum. Didnt talk with girls for years and now people think im into men, wich i try to proove against. The only way i thought i could take distance from it was to hate them. I know its shit but back then i was bullied by a clique including a homosexual male. Also been sexually harassed by
homosexuals. Then i figured out a few of my friends were gay and that my crush was a lesbian. Damn. Then i fooled myself thinking i could get away only hating them on the internet. Then i realised im a god damn bigotted asshole and i learned to shut up about it. Then i learned to ignore what
people says and laugh them in the face when my girlfriend comes back to Denmark next year.

Damn i feel like a attention whore. Wanted to make this thread about my feelings for you guys but instead it became another vent thread for me.

Oh well im happy you guys accept my apology.
About the suicide thing i dunno. I dont have tools or willpower beyond strangling myself wich i know is impossible because of a primal urge to live. I dunno. Having my body lash out at me and tell me "No!!! Fuck you! I dont want you to kill me! We still got alot of animal things to do like eating, drinking, fucking and daddy things to do! Get yer arms off me throat" has a good, if slightly stupid and sick kinda positive effect on me

[Loud Whispers]

Don't be so hard on yourselves, it's not a crime to vent, especially for things as sincere as this

[justinlee999]

Just wanted to say it. Ive been on the net since i was a lil 4 year old chap, browsing my moms website, still as 90s as it was back then. Pretty much know how it works, but for me B12 is different, like a big family of really awesome uncles and nephews and the occasional asshole but still loveable cousin. Ive been depressed and periodically suicidal since i dont even know, i guess it culminated when my girlfriend went psychotic and tried to kill someone. Damn she was a wicked one, but i saw something beutiful and loveable inside her, behind all the insanity. Something that was hurt in her once, and she tried to hide it so no one would hurt it again. And she had confidence inme and showed me but then her paranoia got her and i dont know. It hurt so hard, she got raped and murdered on a mental asylum. Didnt talk with girls for years and now people think im into men, wich i try to proove against. The only way i thought i could take distance from it was to hate them. I know its shit but back then i was bullied by a clique including a homosexual male. Also been sexually harassed by
homosexuals. Then i figured out a few of my friends were gay and that my crush was a lesbian. Damn. Then i fooled myself thinking i could get away only hating them on the internet. Then i realised im a god damn bigotted asshole and i learned to shut up about it. Then i learned to ignore what
people says and laugh them in the face when my girlfriend comes back to Denmark next year.

Damn i feel like a attention whore. Wanted to make this thread about my feelings for you guys but instead it became another vent thread for me.

Oh well im happy you guys accept my apology.
About the suicide thing i dunno. I dont have tools or willpower beyond strangling myself wich i know is impossible because of a primal urge to live. I dunno. Having my body lash out at me and tell me "No!!! Fuck you! I dont want you to kill me! We still got alot of animal things to do like eating, drinking, fucking and daddy things to do! Get yer arms off me throat" has a good, if slightly stupid and sick kinda positive effect on me

How is she going to return to Denmark if she's already dead?

[Kedly]

How is she going to return to Denmark if she's already dead?

I think there are nicer ways to ask someone to clarify something confusing

[DrPoo]

I got a new one? Sorry for the confusion.
Having a sane partner is nice.

[Kedly]

Thats what I figured when I read that, thats pretty harsh what you've been through

*Hugs from somebody you don't know but who wants to be supportive

[Scoops Novel]

All the hugs for you.

[Oliolli]

Don't be so hard on yourselves, it's not a crime to vent, especially for things as sincere as this

This right here. Talking about things can help. Talking online is easier than in person, since you can be anonymous, but still get all the responses you would get anyway.

* Oliolli wraps arm around Doc's shoulder.

You'll be alright.

[DrPoo]

Thanks guys. I really like you are here. Sorry for the sentimentality

[Criptfeind]

EDIT: Also, I think that if I ever got muted, I'd make an apology thread. If I got banned, I'd probably make a second account to apologise, before going silent.

I don't think that is a good idea, to dig up the past like that. If you get muted, well then, when the mute is gone you are forgiven, you do not need to ask for it, as it is given freely. And if you are banned... Then. Yeah. You should just step away.