A night or two ago I had a dream in which I somehow became infected with a kind of zombie virus.
Now this was fairly benign as far as zombie viruses go, despite being technically dead I kept my mind, was still able to communicate and as far as I can remember there wasn't much or anything in the way of visible deterioration.
Although I think it was still early days yet, I had only been recently infected... The dream instead focused on the psychological impact of being undead.
It was rather less of a fun time than a certain popular, recent television series. It became known, as this relatively-harmless virus spread between certain people (as far as I can remember the majority of people remained unaffected, I can't recall exactly how the virus was transmitted- perhaps people quickly discovered how to avoid infection) around the world, that in addition to not really needing to give a fuck about anything anymore, being undead also tended to cause strong feelings of isolation and loneliness in its sufferers, being surrounded by the living going about their lives eating, drinking, breathing, trying to continue living and all.
At one point I was actually sitting with a few friends hanging out, and the conversation turned to my affliction. They mentioned those known mental side-effects of the disease with some concern, and I was both touched by their concern and worried to realise that I did indeed seem to be suffering those symptoms.
I realised that, apart from these three-or-four people I was speaking with, I had drifted apart from everyone I used to know. Who knew how long these friendships would last, either. It made it awfully hard to relate to people when you lost the most basic human common ground- the need for food, hydration and oxygen.
I gloomily pointed that out to them.
They kindly declared their intention to look out for me in future. Someone also then decided to introduce me to a mutual friend who was also suffering from the zombie virus, that we might compare notes and support one another through our difficulties. She and I wound up becoming
fast best friends by the end of the dream, and I think our little two-person support group probably saved what was left of our sanity. It was quite nice, really.
Only later, after I'd been pondering this oddly-pleasant dream for quite a while, did it occur to me what a blatant metaphor my subconscious had come up with here. If you replace "zombie virus" with "anxiety and depression" it becomes pretty damn symbolic, just with less of the whole "opening up to people about your problems" kind of thing.
Maybe if my issues were the kind that caused pallid skin, dead grey eyes, a shuffling gait and groaned speech they'd be more noticabl- wait, I have half of those symptoms already.
Then again, I may have been watching Ugly Americans and its Mike/Randall interactions the night before, who knows.