Is that... is that even possible? I mean, vitamin deficiency can mess with you a bit, but. PTSD is a hell of a lot more than "a bit"...
She thinks that all my issues are best explained by a lack of having found the right blend of diet, meditation, and "sweaty exercise." It definitely makes more sense to have "lack of taking care of self (because irresponsible and lazy) => PTSD, depression, anxiety, etc." rather than "PTSD, depression, anxiety, etc. (because abuse and genetics) => giving up on taking care of self."
Like, literally. She actually thinks the former explanation makes more sense.
I'm so tired and I really want to get out of here. The house stinks and it's full of flies, which I'm not personally cleaning up because she wants to keep rotten fruit out on the counters just in case she feels like cooking with it. I'm getting depressed thanks to the environment and each day feels like it lasts only a couple minutes because I don't do anything, but I just can't get myself motivated to improve my life when I know I'll be moving out in less than a week and I could just relax and play computer games now and deal with anything that needs to get done later. Of course, she gets upset at me because I stay up late to avoid having to share schedules, and keeps trying to explain how I'm screwing up my life, going downhill, blah blah blah.
I just don't want to deal with this anymore, any of it. I'm going to move out and keep a really, really tidy house where everything's got its spot and it doesn't fucking stink all the time. Maybe I'll take two showers a day and stuff everything full of dried lavender.