"Confirmation", huh? I wasn't really thinking in that sense. In case anyone misinterpreted what I said, it may be relevant to note that I am looking at this from a perspective not unrelated to oriental philosophy, what with enlightenment and such, which you may understand as a state of ultimate bliss, and indeed that is one way it is described (although any description must fall somewhere short of accurate, as this Ultimate Truth is supposed to be ineffable), but it is also described as an "extinguishing" (which is what nirvana literally means), the flame of the ego being put out. In this sense, this ultimate achievement of Being is actually Non-being. That is why it is said that one must escape the cycle of life and death, to go beyond mortality (i.e., achieve an "immortality" of a sort). But these things are all the words of others, they are with me as borrowed knowledge and not my own authentic knowledge; as such, I cannot say that I believe them. So if death is, in fact, more an end to life than sleep is to waking, then how is that different from the extinguishment otherwise sought? Is it not the same cessation of existence that will deliver me beyond suffering, beyond the question of living and dying? And yet I cannot say that I believe that either.
I was definitely not saying that I'd like to go to Heaven and would be done with it all if I knew I couldn't get there. The very idea of such an afterlife as described in the Bible or other places hardly feels credible.