This is really strange guys, it happended a year or more ago, it was really weird. Each morning when i waited for the school bus to arrive outside my house, i would just lie relaxing in my bed, sometimes sleeping, however the horn of the bus would always wake me. So this morning i was lying down, tired, my breath getting weird and this tingling feeling of lack of oxygen in the blood would appear in my nose, that was normal. So suddenly i felt asleep, it was just normal sleep. I was not thinking of this at the time, but it was suddenly like i was nothing in a sea of nothing, my body wasent there, no life, no self, no I, nothing, i was just disembodied nothingness, i did not exist, nor was i nonexistant, i was not alive nor dead, not awake nor asleep, i was just not thought of, i was unmanifested. So it happens that i suddenly realise that i "am" "nothing", and i "wake", i wake into a world, just like my room, my body limp and as if completely out of oxygen, if you have ever tried choking yourself or diving without equipment you know what i mean, that tingling painful cramp like feeling. I have had dreams of being far away before, but there wasent even any "background noise"; as there always is, when i am awake and sleeping, just some buzzing that reminds me that i am. I remember, before waking into that room, i was in this weird place, like a clinique, i could not see anything, only make out the purple on black silhoutte of what looked like a docter, "You could never see, it was all just blindsight, a work of your brain and misconceived perception, open your eyes, for real this time.", while that was happening it was like i was looking at some sort of wall, it was black, really dark, and blue, think Source engine shadow artifacts, really dark blue, with shades and spots of purple, think the obisidan texture in Minecraft. Ok we try again, i woke up into my room, the light was strangely grey, it felt like when you wake up a late afternoon, i rise, unsure on my feeting, and like anyone waking up in the afternoon, try to orientate me about what the hell that actually happended. So i take a look around, there was no colours, and those who looked like my parents were not what they claimed to be. I felt like i had lost my individualism. I went out on the street, it was really strange, nobody had any facial features, they were all faceless zombies strolling about on their business. Almost automatically and without control, i start walking around just like the faceless beings, eventually realising that i am under a monochrome sky in a colourless world, where theres no individualism, in a sea, a horde of colourless, faceless, identityless people. The town was really weird, a grid of streets, all squared out, the buildings only differed in height, and were all glass paned monolith-like skyscrapers. It felt like forever before suddenly i woke up in a shock, i checked my watch and not even 2 minutes had passed, i had realised that the entire time i had forgotten that i was existant, i had forgotten how to exist.
Today, a year after, i got really curious what the fuck happended back then, i looked up "colorless world" then things like "dream", "Near death experience" and "astral projection", and ifugred out that the feature and colourless world of faceless zombies was a pretty normal near-death experience.
So, holy shit, i guess my head forgot how to breathe, then my body almost died from that. All i know is that i most likely had a near death experience. That was creepy, that experience stil lhaunts me today and i wonder what weird things i am dreaming of in my sleep.
Im really tired right now, ill write about when i dreamt of Eldritch Horrrors set to Meshuggah and Tool, before i knew of any of that, i lll write about that tomorrow.