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Trapezohedron

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Affairs of Emotions
« on: October 30, 2012, 11:15:01 am »
No, this isn't about Love.

I don't understand why I can't feel much emotion, such as sadness, or joy. It takes me a while to jumpstart becoming happy, often wearing a poker face until somebody can genuinely bring a smile to my face.

As for the other emotion, I find it hard to feel angry, or sad about my situation. If you've been viewing the "Things that made you terrified today" thread, you know I have a problem with a certain mob of people trying to find us, usually carrying weapons.

I feel fear pretty easily, and I'm scared as to what will happen to my family if in case they start killing people. But I find it hard to be angry against them, even when I have all the reason to; find it hard to be angry at the thieves who plunged my life into a mess; and find it hard to honestly care about my family in terms of what they're feeling about this current situation. I feel so callous, to the point where its very easy for me to say very offensive jokes concerning this matter. I don't feel human anymore.

How do I empathize with others in an honest way? How do I recover lost emotions? I feel as if nothing matters anymore.
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Re: Affairs of Emotions
« Reply #1 on: October 30, 2012, 12:07:37 pm »
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Re: Affairs of Emotions
« Reply #2 on: October 30, 2012, 12:10:59 pm »
It sounds like you're going through some sort of emotional burnout and/or depression caused by your situation. Can't really say much beyond that.
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Re: Affairs of Emotions
« Reply #3 on: October 30, 2012, 12:12:56 pm »
Nor can I, really. The times I've felt incredibly apathetic are the times I've been super depressed.


My advice is to be honest to yourself. Feel what you actually feel, not what you consciously want to feel. If you don't feel compassion at the moment, that's fine.
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Re: Affairs of Emotions
« Reply #4 on: October 30, 2012, 11:53:12 pm »
Too bad when I don't feel anything, I feel... for lack of a better phrase... ambient fear?

Oh and anxiety too. I keep worrying about the future. It's hard for me when if you're not feeling anything, it makes you start to think about the situations you're stuck in and make you feel desperate for a way out.
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