Here i sit, at my table where my computer used to be, its cables helter skelter all over it. With my phone in hand i write this wich i can at best describe as a lament. I already felt empty within, but now they took what was left, my computer, with my friends, and that contentful mirror life i lived on this wonderhell we all call the internet. All what i had a vague feeling of love to was taken from me. Work they tell me to do. But no, i wont work, their food and money and shelter can screw me, all i want is love and entertainment, not meaningless labor and loneliness. But they took it and threw it away, in belief that i would be more with them. But no, i will do nothing, and just lie down, waiting for either starvation to take my life or untill they call the blue men and take me away. All i want is love and Ameripain, my dream. But neither will i find within theese four walls.
My dream is dead, all that filled the hole left by what rejected me, is gone.
They beleive i got a chance outside the internet, what they dont get is that i am a social reject out there, and i do not thrive beyond the safety of my room. Digital friendship is not neccesarily a false friendship, but they keep their ears shut and just degrade you to useless and meaningless persons.
My heart aches man, i am sorry that i cannot truly be with you anymore.